[ Nightmare ]
Sunday, August 08, 2010 @ 12:46 PM
http://garcya.us/blog/amaizing-love-vectors
Nightmare
Nightmare
I had a nightmare yesterday night.
I dreamed that you forgot about me,
I dreamed that you found someone else.
I dreamed that you left me for someone else.
I dreamed that you forgot about me,
I dreamed that you found someone else.
I dreamed that you left me for someone else.
I dreamed that I was lost and i was running in circles.
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Discussions, Arguments, Wants & Needs
I started a discussion with my mom last night.
It went well, we were starting to understand.
I thought to myself:
"Hey, maybe this IS going somewhere."
But i was wrong.
It ended with me, losing that "fight".
It ended when i cried.
It ended when i decided I didn't want to talk anymore.
Why did you have to butt in?
You said:
"you are you and your sister is your sister"
But you don't treat us like that.
At least not me.
You don't accept me.
You don't trust me enough.
You don't believe in me.
You want me to be you.
But i wanna be me.
You don't accept "me"
So how am i suppose to go on?
Please, all i ever wanted:
was that you would believe me, trust me
Return me that freedom i want so badly
I told you:
"The more the freedom that is given to me, the more i feel i need to come back to you"
It works like a pulley.
If you aren't willing to let go of the string,
You'll never see your bucket come down.
You'll never see me come back down to you.
You want me to be you.
Then you have to give sacrifices too.
Not only me.
You have to give up something too.
):
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say to you.
I love you but i can't show you.
I love you but you can't see it.
I love you so much it hurts.
Please Mommy and Daddy,
Just for once, see things in my view.
Don't think about what you think.
Throw away your impressions, your opinions.
Just see me as me.
Then perhaps, then, you'll finally know why i cry.
Why i am sad.
Why i don't understand you.
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Darling
"Things only go wrong when i am there"
Its not true.
If it is, then why did i even choose to be with you?
Why did i say that you've brought me joy?
It was me that agreed.
It was me that chose this.
So i cannot blame you.
I don't want to see you blame yourself either.
I don't ever plan to leave.
It hurts too much to leave.
I dreamed of you last night.
I dreamed that you were with someone else.
Even within my dreams, i can tell:
"I'm sad, why are you not here?"
):
I felt scared in that dream.
Somehow, i run about looking at you from behind.
You never noticed me.
Just the thought of seeing you with someone else...
I don't want to think about it.
I wished my parents can understand.
I wished that they won't question me.
I wish they would just believe.
I wished that I have my freedom.
«~♥~»
And yes,
I really love you
~♠♣♦♥Elixian♥♦♣♠~
----------------------------------------------------------
Discussions, Arguments, Wants & Needs
I started a discussion with my mom last night.
It went well, we were starting to understand.
I thought to myself:
"Hey, maybe this IS going somewhere."
But i was wrong.
It ended with me, losing that "fight".
It ended when i cried.
It ended when i decided I didn't want to talk anymore.
Why did you have to butt in?
You said:
"you are you and your sister is your sister"
But you don't treat us like that.
At least not me.
You don't accept me.
You don't trust me enough.
You don't believe in me.
You want me to be you.
But i wanna be me.
You don't accept "me"
So how am i suppose to go on?
Please, all i ever wanted:
was that you would believe me, trust me
Return me that freedom i want so badly
I told you:
"The more the freedom that is given to me, the more i feel i need to come back to you"
It works like a pulley.
If you aren't willing to let go of the string,
You'll never see your bucket come down.
You'll never see me come back down to you.
You want me to be you.
Then you have to give sacrifices too.
Not only me.
You have to give up something too.
):
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say to you.
I love you but i can't show you.
I love you but you can't see it.
I love you so much it hurts.
Please Mommy and Daddy,
Just for once, see things in my view.
Don't think about what you think.
Throw away your impressions, your opinions.
Just see me as me.
Then perhaps, then, you'll finally know why i cry.
Why i am sad.
Why i don't understand you.
----------------------------------------------------------
Darling
"Things only go wrong when i am there"
Its not true.
If it is, then why did i even choose to be with you?
Why did i say that you've brought me joy?
It was me that agreed.
It was me that chose this.
So i cannot blame you.
I don't want to see you blame yourself either.
I don't ever plan to leave.
It hurts too much to leave.
I dreamed of you last night.
I dreamed that you were with someone else.
Even within my dreams, i can tell:
"I'm sad, why are you not here?"
):
I felt scared in that dream.
Somehow, i run about looking at you from behind.
You never noticed me.
Just the thought of seeing you with someone else...
I don't want to think about it.
I wished my parents can understand.
I wished that they won't question me.
I wish they would just believe.
I wished that I have my freedom.
«~♥~»
And yes,
I really love you
~♠♣♦♥Elixian♥♦♣♠~
