How can everyone be so happy?

Why can't i be just like that?

It's so unfair...is it so much to ask for just that few people? Is it that i'm so hateful?

What did i do wrong? where did i go wrong? How can i change it?

Can i choose this to be a dream? I can't stand it...

I don't want to be here.

It's so hard to be here.

I regretted so much.

I want to leave...

I feel so betrayed. I really want to leave...why can't i leave? ):

I WANT TO LEAVE SO BADLY.

I really don't want to stay here...i really really want to leave...

just let me leave...

as much as i'll regret it later. It's so painful. It hurts so much.

It's not you. It's me.

It's always me.

you were never to begin with...so why?

Why am i like this?!

I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU.

I REALLY HATE YOU.

GET LOST.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SEE YOU.

I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU!!!!

please...i really want to just...have a normal life...

this is too much. it's not normal.

as normal as it seems right now.

It's not.

Deep down inside. It hurts.

I can't express how i feel...at least not to you..

~Elixian