Why did u choose me, if you knew that in the end it'll never be?

Why give me false hope? Why did i agree? Why did i do it when i knew the answer at the end of it?

Why i didn't believe because there was nothing for me to believe in. He has shown me nothing to make my believe he's there.

I see nothing in my future. I don't see anything at all.

I'm sad. Why am i like this?

Why did i put (: or xDD when really, behind the screens i'm crying so hard?

Why did i put that fake mask?

Why did i think that far?

Why did i choose to believe in something that's not real?

Why did you choose me when you know so well in your heart i'm not the one?

Why do i have to be like this?

Why do i have to put on fake masks to show the world "yes, i'm fine (:"

Why do i have to tell people over this blog how i feel?

This proves one thing. No one in this understands me. I wonder why? All i want is something so simple?

I want a simple life, a simple family. A normal life.
















please. one last time. i beg of you.

"please let me sleep and never wake up."

17 years of my life. I've found nothing. I see nothing in life. It held no meaning to me. Given to me, it's a waste. Why not give it to some one else who sees meaning and reason in it?

Why give it to someone who can't appreciate it.














I can wait for thousands of years. I'm sure, nothing will come out of it. So please. Will you just grant me this wish. So i may believe in you for once? just before i go?

~Elixian