[ Empathy ]
Monday, June 12, 2017 @ 11:19 PM
[ Empathy ]
I didn't want to be here, in this position.
But here I am.
Maybe, my dream came true.
I don't really feel much.
For 2 years plus, I've chased the same person.
I feel stupid now.
Absolutely silly.
So I unconsciously chose to not feel.
Yet, sometimes, your words pierce me.
"I don't want to hurt you"
Why?
Who am I to you?
You acknowledge my presence;
My listening ear to you,
my boundless patience.
I kept all my bad sides hidden.
I guess I am a pretty good liar.
Or, I'm glad you chose not to notice, or not to react.
OR maybe you're dense? Haha.
Anyways,
I kept my anger from you.
My disappointment.
With you, I only tried to be "normal"
or how I perceive that.
I tried looking away.
I got tired.
Sometimes, I wish;
I selfishly wish.
"Someone please, take my attention away from him, and onto you who deserve me."
No such thing though.
No one will help a person who doesn't help thyself.
Well, yeah.
I do not think i can empathize much anymore.
I ended up a selfish person.
Someone i don't like, but am okay with.
~Eliana
