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[ Escape ]

Thursday, April 03, 2014 @ 6:44 PM

Escape

Let's escape for a while.

I am in no mood to do my homework,

I am in no mood to face my problems.

Everything happened in a single night.

I wish i can blame you, but i can't.

You made the right move, you called him.

But i wish you didn't.

I wish i didn't pick up that call too.

Then at least its one less person to the horrible mix?

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I'm not gonna blame anyone, i just wanna escape for now.

I wanna focus finish all my homework and just rest.

Escape from all my problems.

I may be selfish and irresponsible now,

but i rather be that, then to care too much.

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I like our relationship,

plain and simple.

We laugh, talk, do work and literally just be nonsense together.

That's great, thats the best.

I never intended or expected you to carry ANYTHING for me.

Because, you're the brother, not my boyfriend, not my father.

You're my listening ear when i need it.

Heck, you can even PRETEND to listen for all i care.

I don't care!

I just wanna get things out of my system.

I just need to rant to human being that would give me a "uh huh" response!

I think, apart from me being too sensitive, you're too worrisome.

You feel like you're scared to handle my problems,

but in the first place, i never expected you to, or want you to.

All you have to do, is pretend to listen.

Yeah, i'm making use of you.

You said you're ok but i don't think you are?

Wish we can just clear it all up.

I just lost a friend. Deep down, i think i just lost a friend.

Losing a friend doesn't mean we are apart or mentally apart?

It means, we've hit a standstill and we're probably and 99% gonna avoid each other.

Even if it's a few hours, it makes a difference, to me.

Wish none of it ever happened.

Then i won't lose a friend.

Then, i won't be stuck here.

"Sketch your pitiful dreams with more strength than anyone else."

I tried.

I wanna focus, but i can't.

I'm such a horrid friend.

Elixian