waiting for by ~ skyhorizon; Deviantart

Waiting

I realise i've been waiting
not that i mind

but sometimes,
i do get the feeling that i want time to speed up
i wish it'll pass faster

so i can see you sooner
so i can spend the days like before

somehow,
i can't tell the difference anymore
hahas

feel as if i've lost everything.
I look in the mirror to see someone so pathetic

Every time i look,
i see a girl who wears a mask

My arm hurts,
My head hurts for reasons i can't find,
My heart aches.

I keep craving for things.
But i know i should wait.

There's too many things i want to do.
Strangely, it's not because there's no time.
But rather,
there's no way to do it ):

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Meaning

Found something, i love.



~Worlds Apart, Silverstein

Lying all alone, wishing you would call.
Writing all my thoughts has broken all my bones.
You gave it all up, you threw it all away.
There's nothing I can do.

What do I think of dying?
You know it's even worse than what's in my head.
You don't believe me when I tell you,
I don't want to be a fraud and pretend that everything's fine.
I won't be here when you get home.
I'm not gonna sit here and die.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spite out my pride.
I'll be just fine.

You read me like a book.
You know I'm running out of legs to stand on.
I won't believe you when you tell me.
These old habits die so hard.
There's not intervention in sight.
There's no point in calling you.
I'm just gonna stand here and fight.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine.
You fill my head with endless lies.
You're killing me, I'm killing time.
I'll be just fine.

So, maybe one day the pain will go away,
And I will see your face,
I won't even care.
Changing all the locks 'cause I can't change you.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine.

You fill my head with endless lies.
You're killing me, I'm killing time.
I'll be just fine.

♥

~Elixian
i'll wait forever