Darling

I'm going to keep my hopes up.
I'm really worried.

You're so dear to me now ):
I'm really afraid it's something serious.
As much as it won't be life-threatening...

I'm really really worried ):
I wish i could do more.

I wish i can take the pain from you
wish i can just be with you
I'm so scared ):

I hope you'll be ok.
I pray you'll be ok ):

God, please protect him ):
I'll give anything for him to be ok.

please say it's nothing serious at all..
I really really want to know he'll be ok ):

sigh...
why him?
why not me? ):

Darling, it really hurts to see you like this ):

♥

I love you
so please be ok ):

~Elixian

Trust

I'm sorry to say:
"I've lost my trust in you"

I'm sorry i can't stand to tell you anything any more?
I don't trust you as much anymore ):
You give me the feeling you're telling everyone in the world about it,
even though you're not?

Well, at least you are telling someone i feel i don't trust.
As much as i know that that person won't say a word.
I don't trust it.

the feeling is unbearable.
to think you're telling someone else about it ):

I hate this feeling.
I trusted you so much,
somehow it just fell apart within that few seconds.

I feel sad.
I feel very "betrayed"?
I don't really know anymore.

I'm lost.
I'm really feeling quite unsecured now.

):

I know i can still trust you.
My heart knows i can trust you.
But my mind tells me that you're going to betray me again.

I'm confused.
show me that i can trust you.

Tell me in my face that you'll never betray me
Let me be at comfort that everything is safe with you

I hope you would read this ):
Give me a reply if you do read this?

I don't talk to you very often anymore.
Maybe that's why i'm afraid?

I'm so sorry ):
I'm so very sorry...

But right now,
my life is just really..
coming apart ):

"i want to trust you"
let me trust you.

♠♣♦♥ i wish you both well ♥♦♣♠

Darling
I feel lost.
Wonder why?

I don't know why,
but i keep feeling that i have to say sorry to you.

Its as if i've cause your death?
i don't know.
i'm lost.
i'm confused.

I'm sorry if i am making you worried
But i feel like i'm falling apart ):

I know in my heart very well that you'll stay with me through this
and i hope it'll forever stay this way..

I'm kinda worried too,
about you.
Don't ask why,
but i am.

I wanna tell you not to worry about me.
but..
then i won't know who to turn to anymore.

i don't know what to do ):
...
i'm really lost...

just...really..
lost..?

):

Seems like the only thing i know right now is perhaps,
"i love you"?

♠♣♦♥ I'm really falling apart ♥♦♣♠

♥ Elixian

Practice

They say practice makes perfect
I know it's true

Yet i haven't been touching my dear violin ):
been caught up in so many things

mostly seemed to be not that important to others
Music has been my life mostly

it has kept my company for many days and nights
hahas still..somehow i've neglected it

Well
I don't feel all that bad
just really glad it's still around to keep my company

Viva La Musica~ ♥

♥♦♣♠ Listening to Perfection ♠♣♦♥

♠ Elixian ♠