When did it start?
How will it end?
Will you come and take the sadness away?
Why choose someone you know you won't be with in the end?
What was the reason?

Maybe it's because i love you so much, i wanted to stay.
Maybe that's the reason, to describe how i feel.
To leave may be the best solution, but i want to be with you.
I don't want to leave you, yet..
the only way is to leave...?

I really don't want to.
Save me?
I can't help but think.

so, please, don't let me go...

when you leave me, it just makes me feel like you've never loved me.
i was just there to be there.
the feeling is so strong and it hurts.
As much as you say it.
As much as i know it.
As much as i felt it.
It still hurts.

Its hard.
I don't want to think that you leave me.
I'm scared.

Why am i always the puppet?
But i'll keep my promises.

You deserve better.
Who's the best for you, i don't know.
But i do know it's not me.

It's fine if i suffer, but i don't want to leave you...
but i have to leave you in the end...
it hurts so much...
don't tell me "if it hurts so much, why not just get it over and done with?"
feelings may be temporarily, but memories last for a life time.

I reach out my hands, praying some one will hold it and guide me.
yet no one ever answers my cry.
I don't want to turn around to know you're not behind me anymore.
To turn and see you with someone else.

I don't want to know.
I wish time could stay still.
I rather we stay like this forever.

But i'm selfish.
You should live your life.
I can stay and watch i guess?

Yeah, i should stay and watch.
Maybe life would be better then..

I love you.

♠♣♦♥Elixian♥♦♣♠