To you:

Thank you for keeping me company
Thank you for being there for me
Thank you for everything you've done so far
Thank you for staying with me even though i don't qualify for so many things
Thank you for staying by my side even though i am so hateful
Thank you for talking to me
Thank you for choosing me over so many other you could have chose
Thank you for being the one who would make me smile

Most of all, thank you for simply being being there, even if you did nothing or said nothing...

I'd like to thank you for so many things even though its been such a short time...

Sweet dreams to you.

I regretted a lot.
I've done a lot of silly things.
I've been an idiot
I've been the fool
I've been the worse
I've been the most demanding when i don't deserve
I've regretted regretting

Most of all, i regretted being with you. So short, yet i've done and said so much to make you worry. I'm sorry.

I'm very sorry. ):

I want to say "goodbye" but i can't bring myself to. Somehow, i can't leave. Yet, i want to.

I don't know what i should be doing.

Where should i be headed. I don't have dreams like yours.

I would love to change. I want to change.








Sometimes, i really feel like saying "goodbye" to this world. Because i feel like if i'm not here, it'll be a better place.

There'll be one less ugly person, one less irritating, annoying, demanding, undeserving person on earth. Someone else better could have taken my place, made them happy, made everyone happy.

I really enjoyed it so much. Now, that i've thought about it, i think that it might just be better this way.

"Thank you, i'm sorry. Good bye."

~Elixian

It's been about... 7 days?

I feel like I'm being such an idiot sometimes.

there is one thing i have stop regretting. However there are many other things i regretted doing.

I don't think i'm good enough for so many reasons.

just that, i don't match up to you.

sigh..): maybe what they said is right? hmmm, i can always improve, no, rather. I HAVE to improve. It's the only way?

How is it that i can improve?

What are the ways i can do to improve?

I've said many things, but none of it is really important.

Oh, I'm hoping i do above average for my term test :\ sigh, WDS B+, a mark away from an A...

Dear you,

What can i do to suit you? I know you read this. I feel bad for not being able to be better. You can say i'm already as good as i am right now but i feel like i need to meet the other people's expectations as well. Ah well, what is your opinion on this? I would like a proper answer...

Constructive comments are always good (:

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I noticed I've not update for sometime, hahas and every time i DO update it's something really crap :\

I should improve the content...but then again ): sigh. I don't think i can?

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Java coding
Pseudo codes
History of games
Drawing
Making videos
Maths
Coming up with ideas
Analyzing websites

What else?

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I need to improve. I have to improve.

I'll do it for you.

~Elixian

How can everyone be so happy?

Why can't i be just like that?

It's so unfair...is it so much to ask for just that few people? Is it that i'm so hateful?

What did i do wrong? where did i go wrong? How can i change it?

Can i choose this to be a dream? I can't stand it...

I don't want to be here.

It's so hard to be here.

I regretted so much.

I want to leave...

I feel so betrayed. I really want to leave...why can't i leave? ):

I WANT TO LEAVE SO BADLY.

I really don't want to stay here...i really really want to leave...

just let me leave...

as much as i'll regret it later. It's so painful. It hurts so much.

It's not you. It's me.

It's always me.

you were never to begin with...so why?

Why am i like this?!

I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU.

I REALLY HATE YOU.

GET LOST.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SEE YOU.

I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU!!!!

please...i really want to just...have a normal life...

this is too much. it's not normal.

as normal as it seems right now.

It's not.

Deep down inside. It hurts.

I can't express how i feel...at least not to you..

~Elixian