yeah that's all i felt today.

Anger and more anger.

It hurts like hell for goodness sake if you blood idiots don't know.

**no i'm not refering to your case. not the library one. i'm refering to another case.

And i can't hear a thing from where i am. But what can i say? request for a change??

would you assholes even bother to change with me?? I'm beginning to hate you guys really much. Either you get out of my sight. Or you simply shut up.

i hate hearing your voices. the 2 of you especially. Look at my mood before you decide to crack an idiotic joke on me. You'll piss me off big time. trust me. i am not going to forgive you. at least not until i stop hearing that irritating voice of yours.

so what if you're smarter than me? so what if i'm stupid? i'm still human in case you losers don't know. oh i forgot. you ARE losers no wonder you don't have the brains to feel for others. or rather no brains to think before you freaking act.

Yaeh, you've pissed me off successfully. So, let me repeat:

"SHUT UP. AND FUCKING GET OUT OF MY FACE. YOU BASTARDS"

no i am NOT afraid of using that word. Beside to you guys its probably just another word. so freak you. (:

I wonder if you jerks would even read this. yeah i am going to offend you. and i'm not afraid.

after sitting there with 3 empty tables. It's the feeling you get. especially when you're always the outcast. ALWAYS.

~Elixian
(screwed up, fucked up, world. what crap.)

can't believe the holidays are over!! )):

for one, i haven't finished all my homework >.> (cough cough)

Well yesterday was a great day hahas was "drunk" at jasmine's house for her birthday party lols.
Found a new partner to go "Drinking" with!! she is...JOEY~! hahahhahaha

ok la, Happy birthday jasmine (:

hohoho~

sigh, prelims are close. and my interest for science is finally coming back hohoho~ thanks to my tuition teacher hahas all the jokes you can practically come up with for science. Like using olive oil etc. and drink petrol won't kill you hahas (but it's true though)

haha.

Visited 2 people's *ahem* RICH people's house :D

Jennifer and Jasmine lols

i love jennifer's house!!! it's so PRETTYYYYYY oh and jasmine's one i just amazingly grand as usual hahas

Well, it's back to school. time to gear up even more =w= hahas

cya everyone tmr~! <3

~Elixian

Some stuffs happened this week, both good and bad..

Monday:
Nothing much, rather i can't remmeber

Tuesday:
Nothing much again, probably boring so the extend i can't remember.

Wednesday:
Math remedial? hahas

Thursday:
Math remedial, after that is off to do biology project with tammy and groupies~!
haha it was so funny la. Went to jethro's house to do project. Finished everything but the writing in of details (x woot woot!

tammy was so shock about some facts i told her :D? hahas ah well, who wouldn't be right? hehe (:
tammy kept opening jethro's drawer full of *cough cough* hahas i did open it once before lols. Oh yeah!!! jethro has this really nice cookie!!!!! lols

:D

Friday:
Kinda sad, after a math remedial, mr hiew treat the whole class to KFC (: he's not teaching us liao lorrrr ): NYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU hais.

it's so annoying to me la..

Not that i don't want Ms Foo to teach us, but i just don't want to change teachers. For me, it really gets on my nerves. The only reason why my chinese went from an high A to a failing grade was because, the teachers kept changing every few months. ):<

It happens everytime our teachers change. sucks. Once i change teachers, my grades would drop. *rolls eyes*

sigh, already got 3 teachers leave our class liao lor )))):

oh well, im' not going to complain...not like it would help pull up my grades.

Saturday:
nothing much, went for tuition. Feel so tired. oh, i got a new phone, cause my phone (my darling DDDD:) decided to die on me T___T ah well, it's still going to be with me (:
didn't name my new phone lols. it's my next darling! hahas now i got like 3 darlings x___x;;;

Sunday:
Went for tuition this morning, went home. ate. played com. and here i am, installing programmes and next im' going to do my book reviews. sigh. sian. =____=

i might change a blog again...heh
oh yeah... sigh.

i think im' finally desperate. how?

~Elixian

I FEEL SO ANNOYEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ARGH )X

WHYYYYY?!

):

it's so annoying they keep changing our teachers!!!!!

i want mr hiew, mrs ang and ms chua BACK )X
HMPH!!!!!!

~Elixian

I really did.

The White Carnival's Dream.
The Black Star's Wish.

Le rêve du carnaval blanc
Le souhait de l'étoile noire

~Elixian
vie dans un cauchemar

i feel so sad.
it's as if you care.
go away.
i feel so stupid.
i feel like a fool.
maybe...i AM a fool.
I'd wish the world. away.
Just to see you.
really, i would.
):
I feel like a kid.
I'm so sorry.
do you even care?
do you even know at all?
i'm no longer lost.
i am just...jealous.
i think there is a word i can use.
no time. fun. smiles. photos.
can you hear me?

i'm going to be scolded again.

In every word, there's a message.
do you trust me?
i won't let you stop me.
i won't stop.
you know, i still feel like a child.
i think i'll never be able to grow up.
next time,
i should just shut up.
i'm such a fool.
so pathetic.
so hopeless.
then again, who would be there to save me?
i wonder which would reach me...
death? or hope?

White Carnival, Black Stars:

showering down from the sky,
the lights don't stop glowing,
making my dark carnival become white,
washing away my sorrow,
then creating a new one.

stop dreaming,
stop dancing,
stop believing,
just let it flow,
let it fall from the skies,
wash away everything i ever made.

--White & Dark Carnival--
--The Stars of white and black--
--The line between us is fading--

Will it be like before soon?
I missed that time.
wanted everything back.

let me dream,
dark carnivals. white carnivals. my celebration.
the stars above me show,
the whites and the blacks,
my rights and wrongs.

SHUT UP,I HAVE ALWAYS HATED YOU. YOU'VE ALWAYS MADE ME ANGRY. I HATE YOU! GO AWAY. STOP MAKING ME ANGRY. YOU WANT PROVE!? I'VE GIVEN IT TO YOU. SO SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR ASS F*CKED UP VOICE! ): < GET LOST. YOU AREN'T WORTH MY PRECIOUS TIME! TRUST ME. IF YOU LEAVE ME ALONE FOR A YEAR, I WOULD BE TEN THOUSAND TIMES HAPPIER! GRRS.

~Elixian

Ok...i couldn't get my phone to connect for the past few weeks, so i finally got it and here are the photos i originally wanted to use for my posts... hahas let's start from the most recent, to the past.

Study Camp Week:

It's a girl, rough sketch :D

Yush i vandalised chris sern's note pad!! hahahaha

hohoho see??? i drew so much xDDD

One of the thursday during sl meeting that wen zhen (da jie) decided to take photos :] with my phone of course lols

SL meeting~ lols

Yup, we sat there taking photos o.o

After Chinese olvls:

My sis bought it for her friend, i made it with her lols

On the day of chinese olvl, Monday.

Mrs ang is leaving ussss DDD:

but she's stil evil to the end (: hehe

Star Awards :D

Me and wen zhen at back stage haha we're the prize presenters, wenzhen was supposed to be the MC though xDD hehe switched roles with brandon :D

Parent's Meeting: (28 May)

That's my hand and ipod :D that star was given to us by mrs ang :)

Haha decided to take random photos...

Yup, that's Chris' Hand with my pretty ipod my star, his star and ben's star (ben didn't come to school due to his teeth again =.=)

During Chinese Intensive week:

Drew this within 5 mins for my dear junior lols xDD so cute right!? hahas

The Swing:

The completed version of it!!

More views~!

Front view~ hahas yeah i used the glue to hold it up cause the glue wasn't dry... but now it is!!!

Well, i've been depressed for so long im' way over it. But i still need to find a support ):

i want my supporter ): < HMPH YOU BETTER NOT HIDE CAUSE ONCE I FIND YOU, YOU'RE DEAD!!!!!!!!! hahahas

yeah..oh...holidays scheduel...

let's see:
----- week 1 -----
1 June - Chinese Olvl
2 to 5 June - tuition, band and study camp.
6 June - DMB performance + tuition
7 June - Go temple, tuition
----- week 2 -----
8 June - Investiture Practice, Bio Remedial
9 June - Tuition, bio remedial
10 June - bio remedial, tuition (if not it's on thursday)
11 June - bio remedial, tuition (if not on wednesday)
12 June - bio remedial, tuition (if not on saturday)
13 June - Tuition
14 June - tuition
----- week 3 -----
15 June - bio remedial, tuition (if not on tuesday)
16 June - bio remedial, tuition (if not on monday)
17 June - math remedial, tuition (if not on thursday)
18 June - math remedial, tuition (if not on wednesday)
19 June - math remedial, tuition (if not on saturday)
20 June - tuition
21 June - tuition
----- week 4 ----
22 June - Free
23 June - Free, tuition
24 June - Free, tuition
25 June - Going to printing shop with adeline and teacher, sl tee.
26 June - Free
27 June - tuition
28 June - tuition

Legend:
if dates are in - Red = I'm not free the whole day
Yellow = I'm free half of the day
Green = i'm free the whole day unless i decide to go for tuition :D
Blue = I may be free for almost the whole day except for tuition, etc, etc. :D

Notes:
On 3rd week, i'm going to be study with a few friends~! hehe :D should be around friday ba~! since friday classes are in the morning only.

Sigh, there goes my hols ):

~Elixian

Ok, updating as requested~!

let's start with...

Monday:
Hmm...Nothing much, i had Chinese OLevel Papers... (: i can proudly say, i am able to pass!!!

Tuesday:
Erm, went for first day of study camp... had math with mr soon o.o and ss with mrs chew~! omg!! mrs chew is damn nice (x hehe i'm begining to like her :D

Wednesday:
hmm...after study camp, i had band band band... ):

Thrusday:
Study camp, went for SL meeting (hahahhahahahahahas i'm going to freak some ppl out ^ ^) then rushed to tuition, along the way, bought new court shoes :3

Friday:
It's EARTH DAYYYY lols xD yeah~! after study camp, went for band which totally spoiled my mood, sad to say. We got scolded =.= then at night, my sister and i decided to squeeze ourselves onto a single bed in my mom's room with aircon xDD so in other words, i got pushed off the bed twice =x= (my sister pushed me off T__T). Hahas 4 people squeezing into 1 room X] was fun lols.

Saturday:
hmm...woke up, went for band, yet again, band has not failed to ruin my mood =.= anyways, rushed to tuition at 11:30am, then rushed back to school by 2:30pm >__> so annoying...but ah well... after band, went to kovan with parents, picked up my sister and went to buy some stuffs... gosh i'm so tired today ): tmr i have tuition again..sigh...

well, sunday's going to be a killer, seeing as how i have tuition from 9am to 12:15pm? sigh T____T i hate my life sometimes...

~Elixian
(life's boring .__.)