[ leave me alone ]
Sunday, April 19, 2009 @ 6:16 PM
Leave me alone,
Leave me like you always did,
Nothing can change and nothing will,
The scene of me falling,
Is the scene you love,
You'll laugh at my every mistake,
I used to trust you,
Now i don't,
You've killed me,
Are you happy now?
I said, "I'm hurt"
You did nothing,
You just laughed,
I'm sick of the way the world treats me,
I had enough of my self,
My greatest enemy has destroyed me,
It has taken over me,
Controlled, i can't break free,
I'm hurt.
So, are you laughing in delight and sheer joy now?
I've been thrown into depression,
Into an endless black hole,
Into a prison i can't escape,
I need help,
I want help,
Yet none of you are willing to,
"You still have us"
I don't trust that statement,
For i've fallen too deep to even see the beginning,
I'm dead,
Are you smiling from ear to ear seeing me fail?
Tell me, my guardian angel,
Tell me,
Tell me about me,
Tell me you have time,
Tell me i have a life,
Tell me i am able to stand again,
Tell me that i can defeat that fiend alone,
Tell me i have strength and i will stand,
Tell me i can be myself again without fear,
Tell me so i can wipe that horrid, terrible smile off those people's faces.
Tell me, so i can smile again.
I want to be me, without fear,
I wish for one person,
my request isn't much,
but to find that person,
to seek that person whom will be willing to listen,
that person who'll bring me back up,
that person who'll make me smile truly,
is a difficult and tedious,
I'm still searching,
I'm still seeking.
I want to find you.
The world is against me,
I'm falling,
I'm getting hurt,
I'm regretting every single action i've made,
I'm still a failure,
I'm still a fool.
I beg for you to come and take me away,
Please, take me away and save me.
Take me to a place where i can have no fears,
Where time won't stand in my way,
and where i can smile without faking it.
I want to lave everyone, and everything behind,
i want them to LEAVE ME ALONE,
i only need 1 person.
just 1.
please....
~Elixian
I'm a fool. Are you happy now?
