I have no idea what happened recently. I seem to keep losing my memory...all i can say is, i only remember how i've suffered, and not how i've enjoyed and laughed.

Life, seemed to just pass by..
second by second,
minute by minute,
hours by hours
day by day...

it won't end.

Monday,
All i remember was, i was practicing for band...

Tuesday:
I only remembered that silver and the happiness i felt.

Wednesday:
I remember how terrible i felt in school.
I had cramp,
I became ill,
I had a flu,
I had a slight cough,
I had throat infection,
I had a horrible headache,
I was tired,
I was desperate,
I was restless...
I wanted to just rest, just go home, and rest.
But that didn't happen, i remembered i stayed back.
I endured.
My body give way, i went to the doctor.
I rushed to tuition.
I became so sad.
I cried.
I went home.
I was tired, i was asked many questions.
I just fanned it off...
I'm tired.
I still am.
I want to rest.

Thursday:
I missed a lot.
I missed school.
I missed the morning 7-habits meeting...
I missed the recess rehearsal...
I missed Chemistry, which was suppose to be SPA, but it was canceled i guess...
I missed a whole chapter in math,
I missed VE which was photo taking session till it was delayed.
I missed everyone.
I remember i still feel terrible, i didn't want to wake up.
My headache was reaching it's limits, i felt like blowing up.
I went to the doctor.
Missed out school,
studied at home.
Rested i guess...

Friday:
I'm still tired.
I'm still ill,
I'm still want to rest,
I still feel guilty...
I feel terrible.
This is seriously not my day...

Firstly, what rights do u have to comment on my art? you know nothing as to how to do it. I did 80 to 90% of the whole wheel! i'm not going to complain about me soloing cause i love to solo these kind of art works. But seriously, don't comment when u can't do a better job than me. I enjoyed the company of the other 2 who is able to produce art of a good standard, even better than mine. I have no idea as to why i can't stand these few of you... sighs...

Next thing is, i've already feel terrible enough as to skip tuition cause of this. And letting my mom lecture me for it. Yes, its my fault. When i finally finished my parts, and i passed the keys to you with her, you asked a question i answered.

HELLO?! LISTEN HERE, I DID MOST OF THE WORK DOWN THERE WHILE YOU WERE JUST WALKING HERE AND THERE! WHAT THE HELL DO U MEAN YOU'LL TREAT HER AND ONLY HER?! I DID SO MUCH?! I GOT LECTURED CAUSE I SKIPPED TUITION FOR YOU! YOU AND YOUR BLOODY EVENTS! U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I'VE SACARIFICED FOR SCHOOL, FOR ANYTHING AT ALL!

you have no right to even joke with me. Cause u don't appreciate what i have done for the whole group of people. i feel so neglected? heh, what do u mean the birthday girl gets a treat? what about the one who has done 90% of the work, done so much preparation work? how about the guy who spray painted the whole background? the one who made the shapes, the one who gave the ideas? hello?

LISTEN. IN THE WHOLE THING. THERE'S ONLY 3 PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN WORKING? IF YOU WANT NAMES. I'LL GIVE U NAMES. GO THE SL ROOM. LOOK AT THE BANNER. WHAT IS WRITTEN THERE. THOSE 3 NAMES. THOSE 3 ARE THE ONLY 3 WHO HAVE BEEN WORKING TO MAKE THOSE RIDICIOUSLY TIME CONSUMING THINGS.

i have nothing more to say to such a thing. i am really angry.

and no, to you, you are not useless, you offered your help, that's useful enough to me. you bought my drink, i'm greatful (:

honestly, i really appreciate those who offered to help at the right moments. not when i'm like 90% done and u come as ask if i needed help. That's called b***s*** k? (: i'm being nice. try to understand that its useless to help out when all that's left to do is put colours on and there's like only 2 brushes...

though i highly doubt there will be people reading this pathetic blog. But still, i shall post for those who bother and care.

oh yes, i just got a call from you. all i can tell you is, smile. Don't be too bothered about it. You can tell me everything tmr, i'm willing to listen ok? don't feel sad, you still have me. I'm willing to comfort you, and let you cry on my shoulder. I won't let you down cause you've nvr let me down when i really needed you. So, please, rest well and sleep. i'll do what i can for you tmr :)

Don't stop smiling, cause your name means happiness in my dictionary.

~Elixian