Even if disappeared, you would not notice.
I disappeared right before you, yet you were oblivious to it.
Am i that invisible?
What's the use of finding me if after you've found me, you ignore me.
I called for you, and waited for a reply.
Yet, all i got from you was nothing.
I felt bad for being a spoiler.
But i didn't have a choice?
I give you a chance, i let you find me.
Yet, its was always you and you, never me.
You blame me, i ignored it.
"Forget it" i said many times, yet you didn't get it.
I felt disapointed.
What would happen if i really disappeared and refused to be found?
I bet you'll give up and leave me.
I have that feeling...
That was how i felt, and that was how i thought.
Therefore, that was the reason why i hate myself.
But thankyou, for always being there to tell me to stop.
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Today was pretty fun, went to watch a movie with jordon and alvin, turns out my junior decided not to come...

I wasted 45 cents >> nearly wasted 90... haha why? cause jordon and alvin didn't know how to walk to plaza sing from the MRT.. o.o okays, then we went to eat? i love the takoyaki!!! :D alvin and jordon went to KFC though .___.

Then went for movie... then shopped around O___o i found this super nice store xDD i WILL get something from there for someone's birthday next year, hopefully lols. After that, went to walk even more, and thats when i kept repeating 1 qns and no one answered... and i asked INFRONT of the person >> fantasic... hahas okay that aside.

So i decided to "disappear" and they obviously didn't notice... until they were done with the cds they were browsing through...which was about 15 minutes later. Then after that, they "found" me and we went to the book store, there i walked right PAST them... and went out and waited... and waited.. and decided i was bored so i moved to the next store, finished browsing and went back, they were still at the same spot, on the same book >> i counted. 10 mins.

If i had not walked up to them and talk to them, i wonder how long it'll take for them to know that i'm gone. Within that time i could have gone away to another building...then they would never find me. i'm amazed. and i'm sick of myself.

Oh yes, we went to the arcade o.o and jordon and alvin spent their time on 1 machine, killing..zombies? ok, i'll call them monsters. hahas it was so funny to see them play. Wonder how they'll look on the DDR machine o.o

(FYI, DDR = Dance Dance Revolution) <-- i can't believe they didn't know what it is when it's right in front of them o.o hahas okay :D i feel stupid and dumb.

After which, we went all the way to sengkang? just to watch Jordon eat o.o and Alvin being amazed at the ice making machine in the food court. hahas.

Then went home. that concludes my day i guess. i'm tired. and i am SICK of waiting and waiting and waiting... and of course, i'm disgusted at my attitude and personality. i wish someone would tell me off for today, but i don't think anyone would.

Sometimes, i really want people to scold me and tell me off, thats way i display such childish and irritating attitudes yet.. nothing? okays!!! i MUST end this post before i go on ranting about myself >___
~Elixian