Haha, honestly this post has nothing much to do with the title, i just felt like typing that lols xD

ok! on with the post

Sunday:

Woke up early yet again thanks to my parents but of cos i went back to sleep only to be woken up again to be called to wash the car, YES, wash the CAR... fine, i'll deal with that later... in anycase... i nearly went crazy .__.''

the rain won't stop and i got scolded for not washing the car (in the rain) i would be happy to, but to bad i'm not allowed (then why am i nagged at? hell like i know) then at night i literally had so many silent screams, i kept screamining nothing came out and i ended up laughing my head off and nearly crying (why? well.. you'll see) i really had enough of what i'm having... honestly...

i had to complete:
-An IIC list, which was so screwed up i realised
-30 over tags for the instrument taged which i had not replaced for i stopped for exams...
-Chemistry SPA which i had to read thru some old experiments didn't take long.. :]
-Student Council Relay System... (which someone didn't help me in...)
-a Poster for innowits which i had yet to design and can't find information on... great....

yeah all that in less then 5 hrs i had to complete... of cos i'd go crazy... and why didn't i do some the next day? for most of them were due TODAY, yes, today which is MONDAY... great ^^

and the best part is, my IIC list and tags were really september's work, before the exmas i was suppose to finish.. god, what have i been doing? well, innowits for one, i have been on it since like.. last year mid term? i'm amazing.. ^^ then, what else was i doing? oh yes, i was going for tuition... ah, a brain killer but my favourite subject :]

Then, what else? mmm let's see i nearly went crazy, oh yes, i finally managed to relax by talking to some ppl who were online, and the best part was, one of them confused me like nothing hahas, okay that aside, i'm still wonering about what i should do... maybe i shall ignore it, okay ^^

Then there was TODAY:

yes, today, my most horrid day... i nearly, will i felt like i did, SCREWED UP my chemistry SPA, which was INCLUDED in my O levels, great, fantasic, i'm so amazing i can even screw up something like this... hahas

then i went for band, this got me to want to kill band, really... the merely promoted 3 people to SURGENT... it sounds so degrading to the rest of us...the reason? well, because the other side wasn't happy we were coperal at sec 2... BUT do they know how we got it? do they now?

let me explain, i maybe biased, however it's my honest opinions...

We began work half for most of use, as for me i've been working since april? in secondary 1 as a librarian then to the iic, yes, i've worked double of what those on the other side have worked... they start out in secondary 2 after mid year, and i started in secondar 1 BEFORE mid year... is it fair to not promote the rest of us who has worked hard?

i feel degraded honestly, however of course there is nothing we can do..? well, apperatly, those who weren't promoted, we did the MOST work yet those who were, good for them. However, we did an equal amount, in fact for some, more, work then those who have been promoted, is it fair now?

I feel all of us has worked for our ranks, and yet we did not get our promotion, i feel the unfairness in that, however yet again, we are powerless as to if we are promoted or not, no matter how we work i seems like the other side isn't happy.

The other side, has been mostly blaming our side for things that go wrong. Take myself for an example, not to be such an annoying fool to be complaining, i am the librarian when the librarian isn't around, i am the logistic when the logistics aren't around, and in the mean time, i am also my own rank, the iic, when it comes to uniforms, i am the one helping the ppl PIN up their uniform, yet i am NOT the uniform ic, what am i then? a replacement?

There have also been people who had 2 ranks, for example, my sl, she is the uic and also the sl, she doesn't her job well, yet is she promoted? no. What are we doing? CRAP WORK and what do we get for it? NOTHING

Seriously, what is the world inside coming to? For things we did not do, we are to be blamed, for things we did do, we are not rewarded. They may say at the have jumped a few ranks, however if you count. In secondary one, we are the liance coperal, so in secondary 2 we are the coperal, is it unfair? now as secondary 3s were are merely in the same position when were are suppose to do surgents.. everyone but us is promoted. i feel degraded rather and also very insulted as well as unjustified.

I know i shouldn't been complaining, however, i feel like i need to put it in a way, such it is my honest opinions as well as for those who might have felt the same. True that complain would get us no where, yet complaining at least helps us to release a little "Stress" over the matter.

Haiz, i'm at lost lost for what to do right now about that, and i'm tired, right after band today, i was stuck in the canteen still compiling my list, and i realised how screwed up the list was compared to the other sides... however if i were to complain to the main teacher, it would make matters worst for i feel the teacher would be biased towards the other side.. well, that aside, lets get on with it. I'm tired... i'm so very tired...

I nearly passed out when i was in the canteen doing up my list... i was lifeless and having a terrible headache which has yet to subside. Another thing to add on to the "pain" was the muscleaches i was having for so long now... )): i don't feel well... so i decided to lie down for a moment after my bath, yet i found out that a tired person can't even have a decent rest around the house. My dad actually nagged at me for lying down for just a moment, saying that even if i was tired, i should sleep at 10, not at 8...

my intention was only to lie down not sleep at all, even if i sleep i'll wake up at lastest 9... what is the difference?? i feel so restrained, yet again, i am powerless to fulfill what i need, what my body lacks...

Am i stress? Yes, very. However, not many noticed, especially those who are LIVING with me, they think that i am the most relaxed for i play the most. Have they thought, that i play the most for i feel the MOST stress and all the more i need that break? mayeb they have, however it doesn't seem so to me...

well, i shall stop my complaining session. let's end it... and one more thing i wanna make clear:

I like the person not LOVE the person, so don't mistaken, and in any case that people will fear we'll mistaken each other for our actions, the answer is no, we don't :) its just the way we understand each other ^^

~Helix