Okay, was saboed asked by angel to do the quiz.. here goes?

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people ust state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1.Do you have secrets?
Sure... *evil grins*

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
ehhh...Nope, don't think i'll ever ^^ hahas

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
o.o...yes? except that i have to stay back and get scolded T___T

4. What is your current dream job?
To be a game designer haha

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
hahas depends.. if my best friend is a male, i might? (but highly impossible), if is a female, the love is refering to love between friends ^^

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
er... i'll pick to be able to love someone ba?

7. Will you forgive the person who had play around with your feelings?
It'll have to depend.. most probably, i would just forget haha (forgetting comes with evilness)

8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes?
First, i'll be shock, then i'll be wondering how in the world he knew, then i'll go crazy hahas =w=

9. Is there anything that made you extremly happy?
YES *goes wild*

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Losing ANY close friends due to my mistakes? )):

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
eh... a failure, either that, or a game designer ;D woots

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
mm, Parents, sister, angel, natalie, chao ngin and alvin xD hahas don't ask, i'll make sure u don't live past the day you ask...

13. What is the most important thing in life?
To be normal (: and to live ^^

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
ehh... married but poor? as long as i don't get poorer its fine :] hahas nah...

15. What your favourite colour?
Black, red, silver, white ^___^

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
err... >> maybe o.o depends on my age hahas... ;__; (i shall now pity my boyfriend if i even were to have one? hopefully not ):? )

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
hehe, no one ^^ for it won't happen :]

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
yes, i would and gladly, for i treasure friendship.

19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?
er... *hides* <-- that's my answer >>

20. 5 people i'm gonna sabo *cough cough* TAG:
1) Xiu Yi
2) Chao Ngin
3) Natalie
4) Alvin (309) <-- its an excuse for u to revive that annoying dead blog of yours... 5) Stephanie (tuition) <- if you even read my blog O.o

EDIT:
As requested by a certain someone..

21. The MOST IMPORTANT person currently:

Alvin

OKAYS DONE hahas... yay...

~Helix

i wonder what's wrong with people these days? O.o

hais nvm xD i've got my CALENDAR OUT!! hahas

here goes:
October:
29 - Extra Lessons and Band
30 - Extra Lessons
31 - More Lessons x___x

November:
4 or 7 - Going out =w=
5 - BAND
10 - Band
12 - band Outing
14 - Student leader meeting
15 - Band
17 - Band
19 - Band
22 - Band
25 - Band
29 - Band
30 - OVER SEAS!!!! (taiwan ;D)

December:
1 to 5 - Overseas
6 - Band
10 - Band
12 - Band
13 - Band
31 - Band

hahas, as u can see, my hols are gone )):

And i'm only going out on 1 day >> hahas hais.. i gotta buck up on my studies le... T___T

~Helix

Well, here comes the time i've been DYING for. However it seems like it's not all as i have planned?

Why am i like this? i'll tell you now...

I am currently happy, annoyed, sad, feeling the hate and tired

Happy:

♦ Its the last day of school today
♠ I found out i had great friends
♣ I finally have another person to talk to
♥ I can finally take a little break for a day...

Annoyed:

♦ My results sucked
♠ why the hell did she have to have an off day tmr?!
♣ THEM
♥ the upgrading of house downstairs

Sad:

♦ My results yet again
♠ they don't understand
♣ i still feel the pressure...
♥ i need to go back to school for a lot of days

Feeling the hate:

i don't know why i just do and i hate them so much, yes, i would so like to:

"SHUT MYSELF AWAY FROM YOU GUYS"

Why?

"Its because you HURT me and i DON'T want that..."

IS it fair?

"So, please, i BEG you, LEAVE ME ALONE"

That's all i have to you...

Tired:

i and physically and mentally tired...

why? cause i had a hard day today... and im' really tired... i wanna just drop dead and pass out, however i seems like i can't...

Mentally, i'm tired because, i am so sick of hearing the same things... over and over again, i hate it so much... so much so i grow to be tired of it... i no longer hate it, now i'm just tired. I'm very tired already, do they know that?

I bet you they don't... cause, even if i say, they would argue back with a phrase for 1 phrase i say, i get 10 opposing offenisce phrases back...

Honestly, i lost interest in talking to you guys... i don't seem to... like you guys anymore...

I'll tell you now:

"I'm tired. I'd like to stop. I've lost interst in being with you. I'll do as i please now, for i'm tired. I'm so very tired... but do you know?"

My answer to that question is:

"No, you don't"

Not that i like it... however...

"I'm sorry, but it seems like, it's over"

And you, are the one who ended it. No Matter how much i try to revive it, you killed it.

~Helix

Haha, honestly this post has nothing much to do with the title, i just felt like typing that lols xD

ok! on with the post

Sunday:

Woke up early yet again thanks to my parents but of cos i went back to sleep only to be woken up again to be called to wash the car, YES, wash the CAR... fine, i'll deal with that later... in anycase... i nearly went crazy .__.''

the rain won't stop and i got scolded for not washing the car (in the rain) i would be happy to, but to bad i'm not allowed (then why am i nagged at? hell like i know) then at night i literally had so many silent screams, i kept screamining nothing came out and i ended up laughing my head off and nearly crying (why? well.. you'll see) i really had enough of what i'm having... honestly...

i had to complete:
-An IIC list, which was so screwed up i realised
-30 over tags for the instrument taged which i had not replaced for i stopped for exams...
-Chemistry SPA which i had to read thru some old experiments didn't take long.. :]
-Student Council Relay System... (which someone didn't help me in...)
-a Poster for innowits which i had yet to design and can't find information on... great....

yeah all that in less then 5 hrs i had to complete... of cos i'd go crazy... and why didn't i do some the next day? for most of them were due TODAY, yes, today which is MONDAY... great ^^

and the best part is, my IIC list and tags were really september's work, before the exmas i was suppose to finish.. god, what have i been doing? well, innowits for one, i have been on it since like.. last year mid term? i'm amazing.. ^^ then, what else was i doing? oh yes, i was going for tuition... ah, a brain killer but my favourite subject :]

Then, what else? mmm let's see i nearly went crazy, oh yes, i finally managed to relax by talking to some ppl who were online, and the best part was, one of them confused me like nothing hahas, okay that aside, i'm still wonering about what i should do... maybe i shall ignore it, okay ^^

Then there was TODAY:

yes, today, my most horrid day... i nearly, will i felt like i did, SCREWED UP my chemistry SPA, which was INCLUDED in my O levels, great, fantasic, i'm so amazing i can even screw up something like this... hahas

then i went for band, this got me to want to kill band, really... the merely promoted 3 people to SURGENT... it sounds so degrading to the rest of us...the reason? well, because the other side wasn't happy we were coperal at sec 2... BUT do they know how we got it? do they now?

let me explain, i maybe biased, however it's my honest opinions...

We began work half for most of use, as for me i've been working since april? in secondary 1 as a librarian then to the iic, yes, i've worked double of what those on the other side have worked... they start out in secondary 2 after mid year, and i started in secondar 1 BEFORE mid year... is it fair to not promote the rest of us who has worked hard?

i feel degraded honestly, however of course there is nothing we can do..? well, apperatly, those who weren't promoted, we did the MOST work yet those who were, good for them. However, we did an equal amount, in fact for some, more, work then those who have been promoted, is it fair now?

I feel all of us has worked for our ranks, and yet we did not get our promotion, i feel the unfairness in that, however yet again, we are powerless as to if we are promoted or not, no matter how we work i seems like the other side isn't happy.

The other side, has been mostly blaming our side for things that go wrong. Take myself for an example, not to be such an annoying fool to be complaining, i am the librarian when the librarian isn't around, i am the logistic when the logistics aren't around, and in the mean time, i am also my own rank, the iic, when it comes to uniforms, i am the one helping the ppl PIN up their uniform, yet i am NOT the uniform ic, what am i then? a replacement?

There have also been people who had 2 ranks, for example, my sl, she is the uic and also the sl, she doesn't her job well, yet is she promoted? no. What are we doing? CRAP WORK and what do we get for it? NOTHING

Seriously, what is the world inside coming to? For things we did not do, we are to be blamed, for things we did do, we are not rewarded. They may say at the have jumped a few ranks, however if you count. In secondary one, we are the liance coperal, so in secondary 2 we are the coperal, is it unfair? now as secondary 3s were are merely in the same position when were are suppose to do surgents.. everyone but us is promoted. i feel degraded rather and also very insulted as well as unjustified.

I know i shouldn't been complaining, however, i feel like i need to put it in a way, such it is my honest opinions as well as for those who might have felt the same. True that complain would get us no where, yet complaining at least helps us to release a little "Stress" over the matter.

Haiz, i'm at lost lost for what to do right now about that, and i'm tired, right after band today, i was stuck in the canteen still compiling my list, and i realised how screwed up the list was compared to the other sides... however if i were to complain to the main teacher, it would make matters worst for i feel the teacher would be biased towards the other side.. well, that aside, lets get on with it. I'm tired... i'm so very tired...

I nearly passed out when i was in the canteen doing up my list... i was lifeless and having a terrible headache which has yet to subside. Another thing to add on to the "pain" was the muscleaches i was having for so long now... )): i don't feel well... so i decided to lie down for a moment after my bath, yet i found out that a tired person can't even have a decent rest around the house. My dad actually nagged at me for lying down for just a moment, saying that even if i was tired, i should sleep at 10, not at 8...

my intention was only to lie down not sleep at all, even if i sleep i'll wake up at lastest 9... what is the difference?? i feel so restrained, yet again, i am powerless to fulfill what i need, what my body lacks...

Am i stress? Yes, very. However, not many noticed, especially those who are LIVING with me, they think that i am the most relaxed for i play the most. Have they thought, that i play the most for i feel the MOST stress and all the more i need that break? mayeb they have, however it doesn't seem so to me...

well, i shall stop my complaining session. let's end it... and one more thing i wanna make clear:

I like the person not LOVE the person, so don't mistaken, and in any case that people will fear we'll mistaken each other for our actions, the answer is no, we don't :) its just the way we understand each other ^^

~Helix

Decided to blog cause i'm suffering headaches from doing designing... )):

Here's what happened over the past few days... with pictures of course :]

Thursday:
Went to school, had lots of free periods, went to eat then to nix's house for a bit... then to sembawang... O.o

Photos:

the guys were playing "Risk" xD

another picture, still playing o.o

nix's table with my laptop? xD haha

Then today :]

firstly, happy birthday to alvin xD went out to celebrate ^^ let's not talk first and let the pictures take us through first?



People who went except me (taking photo), alvin <-- you can see his hand though o.o?
everyone but me xD pose~!!! lols

All of us ^_______^ the ppl helped us take o.o

Haha, there was cake on his face >:D rather, the cake just smashed onto his face lol

His $62 cake :D! pretty :3

another picture on the cake, before it got cut and...erm, nvm >>

went to K-box after, enough said. O.o

okay, firstly i met Alvin at amk.. as usual, he was late... well, in the end met at 12:15 or...later? then went to amk walked about till i got a gasteric then ate stuff .___. got soooo bored of amk, went to orchard road to walk walk xDD hahas yes, in case you were wondering...we i was saboed by the others jordon, to so-called distract him and the way to do it is... go out with him.. great hahas, boring )): luckily it was only for 2 hours or less..

then, from orchard, got a call from jordon...then winarti... then went to sembawang :P (did i speel that right?) then, comes the following pictures... xDD

NO, i shall not elaborate on how they forced him to feed me and kept taking my fork away so i won't be eating with a fork rather SHARING with him >> bleah, go ask the others who went if you really wanna know )): i hope not though...

Then, we went to k-box, then to acarde, then back to k-box in the end xD spent the rest of the day there... lols they can sing!!! xDD except the female high notes... cause.. they're guys? lols nvm, forget that, it was fun, till i spilled the drink )): gah, nvm, i'll leave that lols... i'm so tired.. ;__;

cause i washed 3 pairs of shoes just before i went out?? DDD:

oh well... im' tired, now i still have to do designing... then pass up all the work..haiz.. bored...

~Helix

haiz, dead tired now, just got back from washing the car )): YES, i WASHED that car >> no, i'm not paid.. least you consider a "Thank you" payment... and before that i packed the house and washed the dishes... great.

hais not in the mood to blog o.o i'll do it later maybe xDD

+++Edit+++

Finally the exams are over... it's been so long? xD haiz, i'm feeling so down right now )): things have happened? and i'm on the losing end?

lets start from Oct 5?
i spent that day.. literally STUDYING... yes, for once, i spent 7+ up to 8 hrs to study ss... i totally left biology blank... i'm so going to flunk that...

Then Oct 6?
i finished an essay in 15 mins, i feel good :] but it wasn't my best, i could have done better, everyone is telling me, biology paper was easy, but honestly, i didnt revise so i did badly... i feel so sad...

i spent that night studying for geography, the next paper... yes i totally ignored math P1... slept at 12? woke up at 3am the next day to study geography yet again...

Then Oct 7?

Well, i assure i failed that geography paper... i had studied, but still i feel like i didn't do well.. )): my life is turning around... >____<><

As usual slept at 12 mid night, and woke up at 3am to study chemistry, chatted with angel along the way when i studied... :) thanks for keeping me up angel ^___^ if not i would have totally fell asleep ><

Oct 8?

well... Took my chemistry paper, feel okay, and that i did pretty okay... for once, i hope i passed it )): after that went out to library to study... Physics, yes, i went with nixon, angel and brandon... angel and nixon were so funny xD but i did study :) when i got home, mom called, and i told her a random time i got home actually a rough time i got home .___. cause i had no idea what time i got home... then spent 4:30 to 6:30 with my physics tuition (last day)

then, i went to buy myself dinner and my sister's at kovan... yes, i specially made a trip there... I loved that stall *-* hahas okay, got home, ate, played a little before i go crazy, then i started studying after 20 mins from when i finished eating? then i continued my studying for physics... what about math? i did the same thing as before, on the way to sch then study, math isn't too hard for me... slept at 12 midnight yet again, woke up at 3:30am to find myself too tired.. i simply died.. but i forced myself to revise... and revise.. my headache isn't getting any better...

Oct 9:

I went to school as per normal, and thank you angel for waking me up x___x hahas, i really should treat you something ^^ then... took my physics and math P2, i am so angry with myself! Dx i could have done so much better!! in math, i didn't finish the paper, for once, the first time i didn't finish )): haiz, it over.... then after which of course, physic paper, haiz, i wanted to kill myself le.. i fell asleep during that paper!!!!! Dx then i finished it still and i didn't know how to do alot of the qns... i'm such a failure )):

after the paper, i went to opposite the school with natalie... went back with her, and then went to the hall with her, and stayed at the hall to watch the sls practice their grad celebrations tmr... xD lols, it was so funny :] then, skipped lunch totally, got a worse headache and went for amath remedial which increased my headache... great...

Slept at 12... woke up at 3:30 only to fall back to sleep cause i really can't take it )): sorry angel! was woken up by my phone yet again, but natalie, she called me to answer a few qns? then directly after her i had angel calling me till i was totally awake x___x;; went to bathe...

Oct 10, the celebrations:

after that bath, i did the usual things before i went to school and for once, i tied my own hair haha, and i cu my hair )): crap... took the a math paper, loved it, but i had a headache throughout the paper >< i finished it just on time, i realised my mistakes.. haiz, matrix qns, got the correct method, but put the wrong side, and and qns 15, the last last last part, i felt so angry!!! i get the x coordinate correct but the y coordinate wrong? haiz.... how i know? i can check de... the digram is there .__. hahas

Then after the paper, i went to sl room and waited there ever since? then went to find chao ngin, and with rayna went back to the sl room... then chatted until jordon and tammy came in.. after which, i went up with rayna to watch part of the performance till i got bored went back to the sl room, and slacked there till everyone decided to go up for free food xDD

i took the keys with me and went off.. no i didn't eat a single thing though i am allowed to eat, i'm amazing aren't i? ended up holding food for mr hiew xDD hahas okay then spent the rest of the time with alvin and jordon, went to the sl room with them and then played ball with them and humphrey? x__x i'm amazed at myself.. then came the debrief for them, after that me, alvin, jordon and brandon headed over to amk mrt to wait, along the way met sheng yao, then waited for nix at the mrt.

Went to bishan to eat, and nope headaches are still a bother to me, they love me too much... great... then ate, actually drank fruit juice, cause i was hungry to the extend i full... yes contridictory, but true for me... and some others... went to jethro's house to watch house of wax, nice movie~~ but at one part i got a fright, gah.. but whatever i enjoied that movie~~ lols then went home? haiz, there goes another day hahas xDD

Then Oct 11:

i spent that day, going to tuition after that, i went out with my tuition buddy, Steph ;D woot i love her i tell you xDD went to spot light got a black box and a blue ribbon for alvin's present, then steph got some items for her art too :] cool love that shop, we visited lots of art shops?? xDD after which we went for dinner, my mom actually allowed me to O__o! but i'm so glad she did :] got home at 7:50 pm :) i seriously love it... but at night )): haiz..

i asked for permission to go out today but sadly not only did i get scolded for LYING to my mom (which i didn't Dx) she claimed i lied to her about the time i came home on Oct 8, which i seriously honestly, didn't know what time i got home Dx then, after that i chatted with alvin and chao ngin on MSN till 11:30 played some games... haha chao ngin was so funny :] but i got so annoyed at my mom for scolding me for nothing? and she kept scolding me for things i didn't do Dx haiz, i went to bed... msged alvin... crap, i cried... i felt so sad )):

i'm disappointed in my mom? i bet you she doesn't know i am, and i can say that if i tell her im' sad or disappointed she'll fire back at me saying she's more disappoint in me then me in her, but seriously has she put herself in my shoes? has she? i feel like she didn't... sorry, i didn't mean to break my promise, but i made a new one that'll keep...

honestly, to me, i feel the people who is in my home, my family, they will never give me the answer the words i want to hear, even if it's a lie, just tell me, make me believe in you, i lost all my faith and hope in believing you... i'm sorry, but i just lost it... and you aren't giving any chance of picking up my hope for you guys... then i slept..

today, 12 Oct...

i woke up to do housework.. i just got "promoted" to be a maid in the house.. i was woken up to do house work? i packed the house... then ate breakfast while playing games and chatting with chao ngin and alvin.. O.o haiz )): then after which, parents came home, sister at school... i continued to play till lunch... then i had to wash up all the dishes? including the pots and pans >>;; then i played a little more before i actually had to go downstair and WASH THE CAR.. YES, i WASHED THAT CAR FOR AN HOUR... Dx

Finally got up to my house... once i finished cleaning the car, the stupid rain had to come and ruin it )): haiz, bad day much? then... after which.. i chatted with chao ngin and alvin yet again... then chao ngin left half wat thru? haiz, i felt happy though, i finished chao ngin's brush, and alvin's card... i'm still looking for jordon's brush materials O.o i'll find it and complete it :] by Oct 14 probably xD

then after which... mm i played games... amost every MSN game with alvin, lols yes, i'm that bored... at least the headache is relieving.... haiz...

then now... erms... just finished dinner and i'm watching vids... then msged alvin a little... mm, then..? blogging now :] after this iuno what i'll do.. maybe chat with whoever's online... ^___^

btw, yesterday, thanks xiu yi :] and sorry jordon and xiu yi )): i had to go when you guys talked to me >< so sorry!!!! i promised daddy i'll be off at 11:30pm latest for MSN....

^________^ okies that concludes my edit... phew~ done ;D

===/edit===

~Helix

ever feel like just going crazy and die? well, i have... for a moment there... >>

Yesterday, i apperantly fell sick with a horrid headache, flu (blocked nose and runny nose), and a sore throat... great, and to boot it's exam time! i can't get sick now )): i'll never recover if i'm sick now, cause i have to MUG and MUG until i drop dead ):

i slept late again yesterday, slept at 1am? xDD hahas, woke up at around 6:30am to find myself in a worst state then before for i'm dizzy and i banged into the wall when i started to walk... i felt so terrible! )):

i hate being sick... esp when it's a flu Dx flu are BAD!!!!

MPV (my point of view) this morning:

woke up x___x headache, can't breathe, nose blocked, throat hurting... got off the bed... walked towards the toilet.. "bang"... ouch )):! mm used the toilet, washed my face... walked out to where the towels were, my legs went "soft", opmfff... cleaned my face but ended up sitting in front of the towel and can't get up... got up after sometime time and decided to skip work and sleep.. dizzy still... can't sleep...

tossed and turned... trying to clear my nose... blocked again... can't breathe... sigh )): finally fell asleep sitting up on my bed...

woke up again at... 8? parents... started to clear my nose again... ouch... talked to parents about breakfast and laughed like nothing, still feel very terrible... gave angel a call... came back to my bed... used my boster to get my dad off my bed O.o then lay down... trying to clear my nose.. talked to my sister... read a bit of comic...

mmm, went downstairs, started coughing... walked around the house trying to kill time... watched the tv... breakfast came home. Ate, took some random medicine... told to go to the clinic tmr after school... spent more time on the tv... played the piano... played the computer... mm, i can't taste my coffee )): it tastes like plain water Dx not bitter, not sweet... coughed and sniffed more...

played with my sister on the computer till lunch time, ate lunch, everything had no taste, no smell, i can't smell the curry! the meat was salty... mmm, went to bathe, played a little more, stopped, talked to chao ngin on MSN... went off 1:30pm to study... the headache came back )): did Social Studies... finished an essay... called angel to talk... realised my phone is near it's death.. i'll get it checked... talked from 2:45pm to around 3:15?

dad came home from grandma's house, continued to do Social Studies...went to buy glue, helped my sister in solving a puzzle... continued to do study... finished my essay... did 4 pages of essay, felt happy... still having that crappy headache, i'm still coughing and my nose is still blocked... my throat still hurts... )): i feel like dying... turned on the computer... playing... mm, i'm blogging now...



sigh, i'm dying really T___T i seriously don't think i'll make it to the clinic after school tmr Dx i'll probably just die in school! well, after exams! i'm going to go out with chao ngin to buy stuff =w= and then, party!!! hohohoho, and of course, not forgetting to grind my level 83 charas to level 100!! MAJOR grinding ;D my sister just got there ;__; well, we'll see next time. Now i must concentrate and do well, at least give my all for my examinations!!

Work hard now, no stopping for breaks during exams, and when it's all over, i can finally sigh and just drop dead... if i haven't recover from my sickness, i'll rest a little more during the hols... T___T i don't think i'll cure myself seeing as now i'm in the mood of major mugging~ hahas

~Helix