oookay!! so i've done quite a fair bit this few days... i'm just gonna put up photos so i can push down the previous few post with photos >>

Here are the photos, with captions of course *nods nods* :D


Got bored studying chemistry, decided to draw xD believe me, this was done in 5 mins 8D!

i'm still studying chemistry.. and yes that leaf has a story behind it >>

hohoho, my laptop! yeah, the leaf with a story is on it >w<

Biology .__. and physics just in case i got bored of biology like i always do.. xDD

i drew this... took about 3 days? and coloured it within 15 mins >> experimenting markers 8D! yes it looks off from this way round, but turn it up right and it'll look better O.o

i got bored >> ignore that xDD yes this is my (messy) table xDD

sigh... need to stay back again tmr! Dx all the remedials are popping out >> well, let's hope i survive the examinations!!! ...which i probably wont )):

~Helix

WOOTs! feeling super happy now ^___^ okay, let's start out with... today?

Woek up as usual... went to school, was raining! xD love the weather, except it was cold .__. finished my english paper <-- another happy thing lol xD

Then went off for lunch with jordon, alvin, nixon, jun kong and brandon.. then christoper, benjamin and dennis joined in O.o after eating... went to orchad lols...

went to the hospital with alvin <-- yes, i realised it sounds wrong, but don't think sick and it'll sound right ^__^ (simply because it's in proper english? xD lols) then, my turn came.. i freaked out, for the first time haha... he pulled out the braces O.o.. ouch T___T after that he started cleaning the teeth .___. yes of course i bleed )): my gums aren't very healthy T__T after which of course, he took some...erm.. mode thingy and made a mold of my teeth .__.

After which, he took photos? x___x;; YES, with a camera, photos of my teeth O___o the funniest thing haha... After which, went for 2 x rays... then out to wait @.@

Sorry i made you wait so long )): didn't realise he took so long... i feel funny without my braces ;___; but, it's a good thing cause i can finally eat properly without restricting rubber bands!!!!! lol

After that, we went home =w= the train came so fast haha xD kk, back home... doing nothing )): i have no mood to study now T_____T oh well >> tmr's there is still remedial...

~Helix

(i realised its suppose to be exam period, however, i'll blog when i want to =3=)

Gosh! it's already tuesday? and exams are like on friday... what am i doing here?! xD okays, simply because i miss my blog for one, and another is to try out my crappish translator again lol..

let's see, i'll start from Sunday?

Sunday:

Woke up, the usual... ate breakfast (hahas, i only eat on sundays o.o) watched tv (uber cool film art tonight!!!)...mm, studied... D: there goes the afternoon... ate lunch... at night, went online to listen to music (which was my original intention...) then, started chatting... first with dear Chao Ngin xDD hahas, okay my stomach hurt from laughing O.o

Then came my precious, angel lols, okay laughed even more (yes i laugh too much i realised...) then... came alvin.... mmm... then chaos? xDD

okay... then Monday:

Monday:

one hell of a crappy day O.o i can't write properly in chinese!!!! all my ideas were in english x___x;;; then i forgot to do geography... and my geography test was horrid .___.

then after school, stayed back to study with angel, but before that, i was in a so-called meeting... then ate lunch... went back to class.... talked O.o went to popular with jordon and alvin after... went to buy dinner for my dear sister >> to think i was carrying so many books??? Dx

After that went home ate, watched my sunday movie ;D the main chara was like so cute!!! hahas, okay i shall not go all crazy over it... then studied O.o bio from 9 - 11 x___x;; actually, 9 - 11:30...

TODAY:

normal lessons, after school went for test... i'm so shocked at the paper i got... literally, cause... we got the excalt same paper! hahas, hope i can pass...

well went home, ate...actually drank green tea, with honey and milk for lunch x___x;;

okays, now blogging chatting and near done with

Okay! so here goes... i'm going to display photos, yes, photos i took for the past few days.. o.o yes i realised it's the past.. but there are some that's today??

haha, okay here: (it comes with captions!) lol...


lol a nike bottle display ;D

they were playing at a playground? xDD hahas (today)

O__o yes, they climb xDD (today)

lols, smilez :] (today)

yes, a hole dug up with alvin... >>

Jordon and alvin o.o after lunch.. iuno when i took it x__x;;

jethro's collection of turtles!!! yes, this made my sister TOTALLY JEALOUS xDD muahahaha

the pretty angel, nope i'm not being sarcastic

Chemistry experiment... last friday...

Today's experiment! xDD muahahaha be jealous of my pwetty colourzzz!!!!!

lols, okay, so today, after school, went for lunch then to the library to study... yes, STUDY... i did a number of math qns... hahas... finished a ws and half o.O hahas okay... now to... entertain myself with... work?

xDD lols okay maybe i'll just slack a little more... :]

~Helix

YES, finally i've got enough to buy that present xDD haha, lol, $20 from my friend who owed me, $15 from the teacher ;D then the remaining $10 from my pocket money muahahahaha, but i'll still need more to buy angel a present too :3

exams are almost here, and i'm here typing on my blog...

well, today, i waste my time, literally, regreted waiting... i should have gone home and study!! Dx sigh, at least i enjoyed my lunch o.o it was so expensive! $6??? for a drink and a plate of rice =.=

oh YES, once i got home, which was a few minutes ago, i had a cockroach in the room, crap, and we (me and my sis) ended up tryin to kill it with some 'weapons'

it included, rolled up newspaper, the 'spray' and also the stick o.o yes, in the end we don't know if it's dead... .____.;; oh well, so here's the main part of my post.

This is for you:

le message passé je te me donne, j'ai dit que je vous ai aimé, dans un sens de cela, de quelque manière que maintenant, ne suis pas trop sûr. Je pense que je me resterai loin de toi, oui, pourrais. Puisque vous ne m'aimez pas… :]

je suis disposé à cesser d'aller avec toi, mais découvre juste avec moi jusqu'à votre anniversaire ? je veux toujours vous obtenir qui présentent… si c'est nécessité d'a, ce présent, sera mon "au revoir" présent à toi…

Si vous souhaitez cependant, est qui ce que j'espère, vous étiez toujours mon ami étroit. la chose que je déteste les la plupart au sujet de me est que je ne peux pas garder ceux qui sont près de moi, étroit. Je peux sembler ennuyant, mais du fond de mon coeur, je souhaite toujours que je vous aie en tant que mon ami étroit.

Si vous choisissez de me laisser, en tant que dedans, ne pas être mon ami étroit plus, et soit juste des camarades de classe, amis non égaux. Puis, Alvin, je vous remercie, merci une fois d'être mon ami étroit. Mais, j'ai une dernière demande avant que vous interrompiez de ma poignée égoïste, reste svp avec moi jusqu'à ce que je vous donne que le cadeau, j'ont déjà fonctionné ma manière de l'obtenir, ainsi moins vous pouvez faire pour cet égoïste je doit accepter ce dernier présent.

En fin de compte, il est tout jusqu'à toi. Je ne peux pas vous commander. Par conséquent, "merci" si vous choisissez de partir, et "bienvenue en arrière" si vous choisissez de rester…

Yes, you should know it's for you. This time i'll let you read it. Because i mean it this time. Sometimes, i change, sometimes i stay. It just happens today changed me... If you'll let me, i'll pretend nothing happen, and hope you'll do the same.

Tommorrow will still come, and i'll still do the same things, if you want a change, then tommorrow will be different. Just say it to me, don't bother about my feelings, cause i'll tell you now, i've lost mine long ago. If i did something you don't like, just say it, i promise i'll change. I'll change, i'll change to keep my friends, especially those close to me, those dear to me.

This message goes to you two too, just tell me, scream at me, i do not care too much now, now that i realise how precious my close friends are. Thinking back has knocked some sense into me.

merci à chacun des 3 de toi… J'éclairci vous remercierais 3… mes chers et précieux amis…

ainsi, à la fin :

"merci, angel, alvin et natalie"

~Helix

this is a special post, it'll be in another language. why? because it's my 200th post! xDD

yeah, it is i'm not lying, also because this message, is one i don't feel like letting people read, if the grammer is wrong, iuno, blame it on my bad source. Some words may not be translated ^__^

haha, i'm not going to tell you the language... but if you're reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally close to me, i might ^___^ hehe~ here we go:

Vos teneo , tardus , ego have been reputo , quod ego reputo ego vires exsisto occursus diligo vobis. Vero , pia , ego reputo i'll contremisco occursus diligo vobis. quare quoniam vos es meus primoris male propinquus amicus. Northmanni, nemo gets ut propinquus. funny isn't it?

Etiam, ego reputo ego amo vos. Etiam, ego reputo i'm serius.

si ego cado vobis , quis mos vos operor? mos vos recipero is lousy quod horrendus mihi?

lol, this is funny xD haha okay, on with another language! hehe

私がi愛を言えば、私をに許可するか。 私は不可解な格言をこれ感じるが、実際に、時々人々の話を聞くことの後で、私、実際に好む考えるか。 私はあなたのためにころぶか。

正直に、私は愛のいることを今恐れている。 しかし、どうかして私はあなたのためにころびたいと思うかもしれないか。 私はとても不可解、右であるか。

yes, what an obvious language, but thing is, can you read it? it's a beautiful language. next one =w=

Ναι, σας δίνω ένα μακροχρόνιο μήνυμα, θα σας πω, ονειρεύτηκα σας μερικούς χρόνους. Επιθυμώ σε σας. Με διασκεδάζετε. Με ανακουφίζετε όταν φωνάζω, κάνετε το χαμόγελο και το γέλιό μου. Φαίνεται όπως εγώ ομολογεί σε σας x___x;;

Αλλά όχι, αυτό το ολόκληρο μήνυμα εδώ, είναι να ρωτηθεί σας κάτι.

(another language)

voi lo gradiscono? la causa i pensa che sia caduto appena per voi :) haha

okay, back to english...

yeah i'm tired of trying to translate over and over again.. so here i am typing english yet again...haha, i hoped it entertained you angel ^______^

muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....... *cough*

)): there's an exam for oral english tmr, i hope i'll do well T__________T

okies~ i shall end the post! cause simply i don't think i have anything else to say?? need to study... T___T exams are so scary D:

~Helix

sigh ): i'm bored, very much actually... slept at 2am... woke up a few times... once at 5, once at 7 and finally a wake at 8... T_____T

this is going to be a short post :]

just some links of my other literally dead blogs... >>

http://deathandlifeofme.blogspot.com/
http://kurosomnium.blogspot.com/

kurosomnium is a new blog... but nope, i'm moving there, this is my main :] haha, the new one is just for me to test out my html codes and stuff.. so yeah...

~Helix

i've noticed so many things lately... it's getting, i dare say, complicated for me.

Firstly, today i sudden got a fear of myself... im' afraid... haha, it's a stupid reason but.. yes...

my close friends, those 2... well, it seems we've become more stressed since exams are coming, and yes, some how we have gotten angry or wanted to isolate ourselves...

i also noticed how i've changed... actually, i'm afraid of being me now... i am afraid of not being able to beat and knock down that expection of mine.

well, this few days i've been busy, but finally found or rather managed to squeeze out a bit of time to blog ^___^

okay, so here... Yesterday:

the usual school, we very sleepy, i didn't sleep much... all thanks to my homework... then after school i went for band, the last practice, the practice ended early so we had a game session :] we played captain's ball, was super fun! except for that few times i got pushed off the chair o.o my skirt become dirty... oh well~ i had fun, that's all i know and the loser actually did a forfeit! xDD haha it was so cute and funny lol

"Quack!" lol

Then today:

Went to school, had lessons, nearly fell asleep, realised how i didn't finish a lot of my work.. and i have more to do as well... T____T well, screw my time management... i've been so busy and tired lately i don't know why... somehow, i lost my thinking... as in, "studying is boring", i seem to have lost that, i have been just studying and not find it boring, rather i find it tiring... i've changed. but i like it that way, motivates myself to work and also, to prove myself and to keep that promise i made to myself.

then, after school, went to lunch... then to macs, with some others and talked alot, then i realised one more thing... and i have a question for myself too:

i realised that i'm just using studies as an excuse to get myself away from that question...

and that question is: why am i afraid of it?

well, exam dates are out, thus i'm going to study real hard, might not be blogging till exams are over, once its over, i'm going to relax a little...

~Helix

Behind the scenes:

Helix: lol... can't believe you actually say that xD

Sophia: why not? xDD haha Venjamin Boom! xD lol

Helix: that's mean haha...

Sophia: but really, why didn't he just used the portal?? o.o instead he used the plane, which was, kinda slow xD sad to say, since we all know magic xDD haha

Helix: lol, true, yet, i don't think our magic works in the place their going to... that's why there's a plane there???

Sophia: maaaaaaaaaaaaaybe~ well! how rare i get to talk to you...

Helix: mm, yes, this would be the first?

Sophia: nope! second! xD i'm second!!!!!

Helix: lol...

=okies, just to explain, the top is my entertainment for math lessons yesterday... so funny xD=

~~~Night time~~~

Heledine: so! how are things going for you?

Helix: mm, nothing much, just studying... exams are almost here hel, you better start studying too...

Heledine: o.o i know... i mean in social life ;D

Helix: mm, you mean Sophia and the Masters?

Heledine:..mm yes...

Helix: Sophia's okay :] making me laugh a lot lately... well, Hel, don't get too stressed up too! the Masters.. are reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally slacking off...

Heledine: O__o! i realised that... they seem to throw almost all their missions and cleaning duties at us Dx i know we're suppose to be 'servents' but not that way! Dx

Helix: haha, just our luck i guess? ^___^;;;

Heledine: maybe D: you've been cooking up lots of excuses aren't ya? about you know...

Helix: oh that? well, kind of, i'm not too sure about it, until the exams are over... i'm not going bother... haha

Heledine: eh?! why not? xD lol okies, wanna spar? LPE and DPE this year aren't gonna be easy...

Helix: yeah...LTE and DTE too! shucks...

Heledine: haha... well let's go!

Helix: loser pays for the sea-salt ice cream!

Heledine: hey! Dx oh fine...

disclaimer: just in case some people are wondering, some of this aren't true :] hohoho~ i have good imagination! ;D *shot*

errrr... iuno what to type.. hmmm

Yesterday:

went to band early in the morn... my mom woke me up late Dx crap, rushed, luckily my dad fetched me... then... once i got to band, brought up instruments for mrs chee ;D

mmm, spent the rest of the day in band, i'm so disappointed in my junior DDD: okay, maybe it's my fault for not teaching her? but still, i don't understand why she broke the IIC rules?! DDD: oh well, it's over, i feel bad for sending her to punishment, but... T___T BRANDON Dx DON'T YOU DARE ALLOW PEOPLE TO DO THAT AGAIN OR YOUR HEAD WILL ROLL...LITERALLY!

okies, after sectional lunch was sectional which the i nearly spent most of my time slacking off seeing as how, i felt bored after like... mm 1 hr half?? xDD okies...

Then met up with angel after band to pass her her o level biology book, then went home with her ^___^ whee~ went to amk hub to NTUC with her o.o

okies, then... went home, did my work... nearly died... gave up half way thru o.o ... ehhh... yeah... haha spent my time chatting with alvin >> okies~ slept... (GOSH YOU LIED TO ME?!)

oh and yes, a webcam actually costs a bomb, literally, seeing as how the cheapest one is like $25?? and the most expensive one is saw so far is $45 >> great...

then... what else?? mm, nothing, i slept.. yup~

then there was today~~ woke up and messaged more people.. haha, then went for tuition, before thatm i actually bothered to study for once o.o

Tuition over, went home, did up brochure for ppl... then... passed to them, ate dinner, now i'm going to slack a little... well, before i start work again... T___T i don't wanna study...

i keep getting nagged at... i mean i DID do my work.. i spent like half my day doing work and studying and they said i didn't study?? CRAP Dx CRAP!!!!!!! >:(

oh well... tmr's the last day of hols D: and i haven't finished my work!!! left with 3 pages of english which i'm planning on finishing tonight if can o.o then... finish geography... hopefully by tmr, COME ON PASST HE INFO NOW?! HOW LONG HAVE YOU DELAY IT?! HUH?!

Dx

crappy life... >>

at least the rain agrees with me Dx i love it when it rains ^___^

Wonder how the people are in vietnum?? xD i wanna see~~~~~~ haha... my full-timer entertainer is on 'vacation' DD: Boo~~

~Helix

Pretty much the title says it all... i've spent my holidays... doing...work. Yes, WORK.

let's see...

Monday:

Woke up... went for sectional at 12nn... went home at 3+? actually, after scetional, i went to buy lunch for my sis, then walked with jasmine and angel to hub and central.... went popular, went to minitoons to buy dear natalie's present ;D she's so honoured! hehe

then went home, ate... mmm, was doing geog i think then chatted with alvin... crap.. my webcam is...funny D: it's funny seeing yourself in your screen LIVE.. lol but whatever... went to do chemistry, gave up within a few minutes and started doing geography...

Mom came home, talked to me again... then ate dinner, continued with work... slept?

Tuesday:

Woke up at 7:15am.... i didn't sleep much seeing at how i kept waking up after sleeping at 1:30am Dx went to school late for the meeting to do geography project with fiona, pei yee, natalie and angel xD okay, i was tired, halfway thru, i went for SL to fold cranes.... yes, cranes...

then back to doing the project, but before that, went for lunch with nixon and alvin cause the other already left... haha then came back, started to do the seriously again till i decided to leave... cause i'm tired... though i wasn't suppose to sleep, once i got home my bed successfully tempted me into lying on it and sleeping...

thus i slept till my sister woke me up... i didn't even get to sleep for 2 hours!!!! Dx only about 1 h 30 min then woken up to 'pei' my sis... watched tv, ate something light then went for tuition where i nearly slept... but can't seeing as how my teacher kept gaving bonus point sums to complete within short periods of time... like 3 qns within 5 mins? yup

earned myself a few points, yes, i feel accomplished! then went to popular to collect angel's book, it's $8:55 o.o

went home to eat, and my mom talked to me while i was eating... haha, i'm going to die soon i feel... then spent the rest of my night on my laptop in my room doing up geography project, yes i'm finally almost going to do done!!!

Then chatted with angel and alvin on msn yet again... haha slept at like 12:30? around there... then... haha, yes i am sleeping later then usual...

Today:

woke up, decided NOT to move from my bed since it was only 7:30am... haha (yes, i'm lazy). Asked my mom for permission to get out of the house to pick the guys up from bishan... mmm...
got the permission and i went back to my bed xD

woke up officially at around 9am? then spent my time walking around the house and surfing the net till like 10 i bathe, got ready then went off at 10:30am... was nearly late! well, i was late by a few minutes... i missed the bus... crap Dx

got there, first to reach, Sheng Yao, he was super early! o.o next to reach was alvin, yes, late as usual haha, then went over to get jethro went to my house... mmm, started with work... yup

haha, i got myself some new brushes and sites to get fonts! xD then... in the end watched jethro play Warcraft on my old pc xDD lol with some cheats or course ;D a little cheating is good or so my teacher said lol~

then wennt for lunch, it rained, great. Walked in the rain... walked all of them to the bus stop telling them with bus to take... mm, then run off to buy my sister's lunch, yes i was kind of drenched cause i decided to take the shorter route of unsheltered pathway... then with food, i use the sheltered way haha

got home,realised i bought the wrong food, but she ate it anyways... the only difference was the fish wasn't fried... then spent time playing granado espada from 2+ til about 4+ when i got tired left my charas AFK at bahia, went to nap... (yes i sleep alot) napped till my sister woke me up to ask what dinner i wanted, then slept again, until dinner time, my mom woke me up...

ate dinner, mm, now i'm planning on doing up all the design of the geography then finish it up when i get the info ;]

okies! i have a poster to do as well D: so i'm gonna chiong tonight, i don't think i'll be sleeping much yet again... sigh...

woot! it's raining now ;D good weather for sleeping T___T though i can't... poor me.. T^T

~Helix

Behind the scenes:

Helix: rain!!!!

Heledine: you've became happier these days ;)

Helix: hmm? oh, maybe it's cause of the rain? xD i like the rain

Heledine: of course, it fits you doesn't it? xD lol

Helix: ;] let's go spar?

Heledine: lol, fine with me, if you lose 3 matches you'll do my duties as well!

Helix: ...fine, if you lose 3 rounds you gotta do whatever i say for 3 weeks, deal?

Heledine: whoa D:, but deal!

[ Match over ^__^ ]

Heledine: oh..crud DDD: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Helix: *evil laughter* let's begin ^___^

Heledine: D:

[ you don't wanna know what happened ^__^;; ]

This is a short post, a reflection i want to say. a statement i will make. a promise i won't break. a dream i want to make.

Firstly, i showed her my results. she said i wasn't trying. i said i did.
here my statement was wrong, it was a mistake. i should have kept quiet shut up until she asked a question.

i feel she doesn't understand me. so i talked, but was cut off.
i was wrong. i didn't understand them instead. they knew me, they know my flaws.

i made her cry. my greatest mistake for the night. i disappointed them, i made her sad.
i shouldn't have done that, i should have even said that. i shouldn't have made her cry.

I SHOULD HAVE WORKED MY LIFE OUT FOR THE BEST RESULTS I COULD GET, NOT SITTING ABOUT LAZING AROUND. EVEN IF IT ISN'T THE O LEVELS NOW, I STILL HAVE TO GET THE PROPER THEY WANT TO SEE. ALL THEY WANT IS TO SEE ME HAPPY, SEE ME SMILE.

but i didn't do that, i did the opposite. up till now. that night, was one of the worst nights. it's the first time i made both of them sad. BOTH. this sad. promises don't work, things don't come to you if you don't try.

i respect them, and i appreciate them. in the end, all i want to tell them is:

I love you, and i will try. i will make you smile. I will let everyone smile.

By the way, thank you angel and alvin xDD haha.

^___^

ego volo judico sicut durus sicut procul exsequor mei somnium, ego fides.
(i will try as hard as to fulfill my dreams, i promise)

~Elixian