[ Hey, i think you broke me... ]
Thursday, July 24, 2008 @ 8:06 PM
by all means, and i mean it, by ALL means, don't make me sad. if i'm really that sad, i'd really break. and i think you DID break me. Hell, i don't even know any more ^^
Fristly, today's a totally TIRING DAY, and as well as it ended off horribly. my bag was killing me, YES I TRIED TO STUFF IT ALL IN THE LOCKER BUT WHAT?! I'M SHARING, YOU'RE NOT, SO DEAL WITH IT Dx seriously, that was quite saddening already, and you had to make it all worst ^^
i think you like her now don't you xD haha, evil... oh well, my fault. i don't think you noticed it but i was tired since the very beginning, i was ALREADY tired... you cared so much about her, nothing to me, i'm invisible? ^^ well, i'm not going to blame any one, this is just an explaination if you were wondering why i became so mad, so moody all of a sudden. NO, it's NOT pms, hell, i really don't know what to do now. i'm lost for once, ONCE about this kind of matter.
really, i'm going to break thanks to you, i've NEVER done this before, NEVER. NEVER in my life did i feel like crying over this kind of things, it's stupid, i thought, but now, i think you've made me think i'm dumb, annoying, just somebody, nothing, crud, idiot, i'm invisible in your life...
i had it.... no matter how i TRY you IGNORE it, no matter how much i try, it'll never happen, just like last time ^^ the person i like well NEVER like me back, i'm like an idiot. but, this is the first time i didn't lose interest, i did worry over the matter, i did control myself...
i RESISTED till i couldn't take it, i'm breaking already, why don't you just TALK TO ME? it's simple, i'm that boring? TELL ME.
i don't mind being friends, normal friends, not classmates, not invisible person. i'm so obvious now, don't you get it? i'm sad, i'm so sad already... but i don't think you notice ^^
i tried to force myself to stop liking you, but turn around, i still like you, you're the first i can actually be interested in for so long. be greatful.
haha, i'm such an idiot, aren't i? tell i am straight in the face, i want YOU to tell me, and i'll leave you alone, i'll EVERYTHING alone. tell me in a serious manner, and i'll accept it. i won't throw my temper. i won't, promise. really, you broke me. i'm in a state of total hell.
sometimes, i really want to tell you, however i don't get a chance for one, second, i already know the answer, so there's no point in saying. my friend told me to tell you, but i don't think i can, i'll go all crazy after xD
Hey, if you read this, reply me in message :] either that, or you can tag me, or email me. any way, i wanna see your opinion, i happen to think you know who you are ^^ if you don't, then well... i'm sure someone well ask me who you are, unless they know already.
so Hey, i know you broke me after all this process of thinking... so, help me :] it's my last request. i want it to end, i'm trying to end it, i can't stand it. but you're not the kind to come and tell me, so i think it'll continue :] i'll just keep quiet and live past the days
~Helix
by all means, stay away from me right now, i'm in a state of being totaly lost and definately sad. either that, or you can help me :] no i'm not joking ^^
Behind the scenes:random1: whoa, it's finally back after TEN LONG YEARS
Helix: *sighs*... my bag... it...kills Dx
Heledine: ah ha xD deal with it! told you to stuff your books in the locker! hehe
Helix: *glares*... you're not sharing lockers for you info, i AM >:( can't expect my partner to keeo getting all my books for me do i?!
Heledine: whoa, chill! well, you've change quite a bit during the break, how's you're life with Ax?
Helix: DON'T. MENTION. IT. AT. ALL.
Heledine: o___o! (some bad must have happened...? ^___^?)
Helix: *whines* <-- totally OOC xD
Heledine: whoa, sure you don't need a mental hospital?
Helix: Nope, i'm just... sad ^^
Heledine: okay, now you're scaring me, really what happened?
Helix: nah, i don't wanna talk about it, it's already the past right? and you said, ignore the past ;D
Heledine: true... but still, i'm curious!
Helix: remember how curiousity killed the cat, you don't wanna be the cat xD
Heledine: aww, come on, plllllllllllllllssssssss?
Helix: gah, fine. *loses all happy expression, goes back to her norm expression*
Heledine: so?
Helix: *sigh*, so...*tells story*o.o
Heledine: ouch, that's bad. i thought i told you to tell him?!
Helix: yeah but still DDDDD:
Heledine: Helix, you're in one BIG problem, mistress is gonna kill you if your grade drops because of this ya know.
Helix: of course, since when does she NOT kill me when i don't pass my DME with an A1?!
**DME= darkness magic examinations ^^
Heledine: erm, she does the same for my LME?
** L= light
Helix: as ha, poor us now.
Heledine: WAIT, back to the topic, what ARE you going to do?
Helix: nothing ^^
Demyx: hey girls! *walks in :O!*
Heledine: Hi :DDDD!!!!
Helix: yo~!
Demyx: what happened here?
Helix: long story, i'm NOT going to repeat >>
Heledine: ah ha, oh well, helix i think we'll continue this next time :] for now, let's get some ICE CREAM!!!!!
Everyone: WOOT~!
disclaimer: i own teh lines and teh words, but i don't own demyx T.T
