I'm leaving...
Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @ 4:09 PM
let's start with a boring start...
Today was a dreadful day.. since my band instructor decided to scold the band and nag at my friend and i for slacking when we didn't even slack...
Everyone has their own limits... and i for one... has reach my limits... i tried so hard to get all notes right, to finger all notes right... hold my breath long enough... try to play loud enough... try to play with feel... with technic... yeah right...
Screw all those... i have my OWN LIMITS... i'm not some kind of robot to work and set things right straight... oh sorry, even a robot has its limits... when overworked it breaks down... just like humans...
I can be rebellious if i wanted too... i can be a good and nice person if i wanted too, i thin i can be almost anything i ever wanted to...
i agree, i'm lazy... but atleast i bother to try out the technic and try to buy time from my mother to bail me out of camp later... but now, i don't care... whatever time my mom wants me out i'm out... i don't want to see the black face ever...
i'm gonn enjoy my holidays... i'm gonna do my work and pleae my sec 2 teachers insted of being stuck in band... yes i know if i'm in band and i do well, my band instructor may help me get into a JC by writing a letter...
but i don't need it... not when if i study hard, continue to score well then during sec 4 i can by my ownself without the help of some CCA to get into a JC... i know i can do it... as along as i study and proceed to do my work and pass all exams...
thinking of this is enough to screw my trip to japan.... here is what i actually wanted to do...
I wanted to stay longer during the music camp tml so as i can continue to learn... i argue with my mom to the extent that she nearly wanted to get rid of my presence in the house, i argued... by in the end i managed... she allowed 4.30 pm...
But now, my sister's camp also ends at that time...so my mom had to take one of us first right? she picked me... agrued again... my mom got so fedup she didn't wanna care anymore... NCO camp... i decided to go for two days... two till my mom told me... we are returning home in the afternoon...
she said rest... or you will not get enough energy to go for your NCO camp... i argue... i'm stubbon...i didn't cared... i just wanna get things right... but no... it just had to turn out this way... toobad for the camps then... i'm gonna listen to my mother... i won't argue with her about the time anymore... cause i will not care the less...
My efforts... i tried so hard just to get myself to practice abit more... since my sister dislikes band, she doesn't want anything about band to be heard at home.. including my clarinet practice...
yeah like closing the doors would help... i tried... in fact i even had the air-con turned on when practicing... and what? my sister still shouts at me from the living room saying that she can't comcentrate on her game... so i stopped...
and i didn't get a chance to play more then 5 minutes before my sister takes my clar to play her SYF song... yeah... i have a clar of my own...we share one... with the reed from band...
don't talk about that... i'll be on camp and holiday then camp continueing....on after another...no breaks... so i would be posting for a while.. that's way i'm posting so long for the make-up...
i'm tired of it...
~Helix
Behind the scenes:
Heledine: whoa... that bad a day?
Helix: nopes.... at least i met delia my primary school friend and had a long chat with her...Heledine: so a bad start but a good end?
Helix: can't really count as a good end since i have camp tml...
Heledine: true...
Helix: i'm going off... bye!
Heledine: Bye!
