[ I wish ]
Monday, January 16, 2012 @ 1:50 AM
Broken Butterfly; Elixian
False Smile
You know, I wanted to say..
"Thank you"
because you've always been there.
because you never mind my bad habits.
because you will always help me.
because you'll give up things for me.
because you said you loved me.
But i wish,
i wish you would mean it.
until the very end.
I wish you'd mean it.
I'm sorry i felt like that.
Sorry that i am selfish
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i screamed at you
Sorry that i always pick your flaws
Sorry that i made you sad
Sorry that i was unreasonable
Sorry i snapped at you
After all the things i've done,
you still stayed with me.
For so long.
It would mean something.
I'm comforting myself,
with the thoughts of
"i'm over thinking"
with the attitude that said
"It's not like this"
I'm trying to be calm.
I'm trying to smile every time i think about it.
I comfort myself that
"we're still together now"
I know i'm selfish to post only my views.
To say only what i think,
and not what we said.
I'm jealous of her.
I think, you really like her.
More than you "love" me.
You're a determined person.
You can do things you set out to do.
And i believe if you wanted it,
she'd come back.
Remember how i asked God if i was the right girl for you?
Apparently, i don't think i am now.
I'm like the passing winds.
Here to be here,
then gone when i need to be.
I'm sorry.
I know i said i'll let go if you wanted me to.
But the truth is:
"I can't"
I'm nervous,
I'm scared.
But i have no right to be anymore.
But, once you've made your decision.
Go for it.
Go for it.
Don't regret.
I'll try my best.
Because, they say:
"when you truly love someone, you'll let them go"
Elixian
someone whom you knew
