[ What did i do? ]
Monday, January 02, 2012 @ 4:16 AM
I know i'm just here to rant. Bare with it anyways.
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Mistake....?
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What did i ever do to you?
Why do you always give me that attitude?
Even during happy moments, you just HATE to include me?
You so reluctantly do things that involve me?
Why is it that you give everyone opportunities, except me?
Is it something i did?
But i don't ever recall myself offending you?
You don't recognize me for what i love, fine. Your choice.
But how is that person better than me?!
I admit, He is better than me. But THAT PERSON?!
HOW. IS. HE. SO. MUCH. BETTER. THAN. ME?!
He can call him an Artist.
Why not me?
What does an Artist do?
Take photos only?
Talk crap?
Draw 2D Rectangles and say i took 5 hours to do it?
Do a cover Art which i have done with the same quality in 10 mins flat?
Is that what an artist is suppose to do that is so good?
or what? Am i not also a GIRL?
What am i then? if i'm not a girl.
You always say, "she gets this kind of opportunities because she's a girl ok!"
Then what am i?
Why don't i get the opportunities she gets?!
I hate it.
I hate that you look down on me.
Last time when HE use to correct you that there was me too
what would you do?
shrug and pretend nothing happened?
Dare to tell everyone that only those 2 are artists. No one else are?
What about those whom i've seen in the class who are really good artists?
They have the creativity.
They have the creativity.
What about them?
Fine. Maybe in your eyes they aren't really artists.
You don't want to recognize me. Fine.
But can you stop aiming at me?
it's really getting on my nerves and making me really sad.
To think i'm not ANYTHING in your eyes.
And people whom are not as good are fantastic in your eyes?
What is this "Fair" treatment i'm getting?
Doesn't seem like much on the surface.
But think about how it has affected me?
You don't know my past,
you won't know how your attitude is affecting me.
I had enough. seriously.
I'm miserable enough.
stop adding on to it.
I don't need it.
