i'm annoyed... freaking irritated, why?! i really can't decide... seriously, i can't.

it just poped into me...because of them, why? why? why?

why am i so affected by it?! WHY?! you know it, i know you do.. i'm so affected by it, not because of u but those around you..but why?

heck, i don't even know... i've bother u so many times because of it. You tell me "ignore" them, however they are affecting me!!!!! i have no more mood...

i wanna quit being so disturbed...

honestly, i've decided... i either love you or i'm just being too sensitive. i'm hoping its the second one for it'll make you feel better ^^

so, want i ask, don't say don't know, just tell me "no" and i'll feel so so so much better.

EliXiaN:
my heart loves him, but my brain denies it, and my heart fears rejection, but my brain thinks nothing of it...also if it goes bad and my brain takes over i refuse to move away from him, i wanna be his close friend still.. that's my freaking problem.
i refuse to move away from him, cause he is a precious person to me?
honestly, he is the first guy to get so close to me...

Heledine (just a replacement):
uhuh.

EliXiaN:
so strange..but yet, i really really like(not love) him. i so refuse to move away; i hate the fact i have to lose a friend

Heledine:
HMMMMMMMMM

EliXiaN:
but i know, if he rejects me, he will still accept me as his friend but never as the close friend again

i hate myself ):

maybe that's why ^^ scream out to me a yes or no, doesn't matter if it doesn't work out, i'll make sure i'll make it work! hahas so contridictory o.o whatever, still, honestly if you asked me if i really like you, my reply would be:

"Honestly, sorry, but i seriously don't even know for myself"

~Elixian