i've noticed so many things lately... it's getting, i dare say, complicated for me.

Firstly, today i sudden got a fear of myself... im' afraid... haha, it's a stupid reason but.. yes...

my close friends, those 2... well, it seems we've become more stressed since exams are coming, and yes, some how we have gotten angry or wanted to isolate ourselves...

i also noticed how i've changed... actually, i'm afraid of being me now... i am afraid of not being able to beat and knock down that expection of mine.

well, this few days i've been busy, but finally found or rather managed to squeeze out a bit of time to blog ^___^

okay, so here... Yesterday:

the usual school, we very sleepy, i didn't sleep much... all thanks to my homework... then after school i went for band, the last practice, the practice ended early so we had a game session :] we played captain's ball, was super fun! except for that few times i got pushed off the chair o.o my skirt become dirty... oh well~ i had fun, that's all i know and the loser actually did a forfeit! xDD haha it was so cute and funny lol

"Quack!" lol

Then today:

Went to school, had lessons, nearly fell asleep, realised how i didn't finish a lot of my work.. and i have more to do as well... T____T well, screw my time management... i've been so busy and tired lately i don't know why... somehow, i lost my thinking... as in, "studying is boring", i seem to have lost that, i have been just studying and not find it boring, rather i find it tiring... i've changed. but i like it that way, motivates myself to work and also, to prove myself and to keep that promise i made to myself.

then, after school, went to lunch... then to macs, with some others and talked alot, then i realised one more thing... and i have a question for myself too:

i realised that i'm just using studies as an excuse to get myself away from that question...

and that question is: why am i afraid of it?

well, exam dates are out, thus i'm going to study real hard, might not be blogging till exams are over, once its over, i'm going to relax a little...

~Helix

Behind the scenes:

Helix: lol... can't believe you actually say that xD

Sophia: why not? xDD haha Venjamin Boom! xD lol

Helix: that's mean haha...

Sophia: but really, why didn't he just used the portal?? o.o instead he used the plane, which was, kinda slow xD sad to say, since we all know magic xDD haha

Helix: lol, true, yet, i don't think our magic works in the place their going to... that's why there's a plane there???

Sophia: maaaaaaaaaaaaaybe~ well! how rare i get to talk to you...

Helix: mm, yes, this would be the first?

Sophia: nope! second! xD i'm second!!!!!

Helix: lol...

=okies, just to explain, the top is my entertainment for math lessons yesterday... so funny xD=

~~~Night time~~~

Heledine: so! how are things going for you?

Helix: mm, nothing much, just studying... exams are almost here hel, you better start studying too...

Heledine: o.o i know... i mean in social life ;D

Helix: mm, you mean Sophia and the Masters?

Heledine:..mm yes...

Helix: Sophia's okay :] making me laugh a lot lately... well, Hel, don't get too stressed up too! the Masters.. are reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally slacking off...

Heledine: O__o! i realised that... they seem to throw almost all their missions and cleaning duties at us Dx i know we're suppose to be 'servents' but not that way! Dx

Helix: haha, just our luck i guess? ^___^;;;

Heledine: maybe D: you've been cooking up lots of excuses aren't ya? about you know...

Helix: oh that? well, kind of, i'm not too sure about it, until the exams are over... i'm not going bother... haha

Heledine: eh?! why not? xD lol okies, wanna spar? LPE and DPE this year aren't gonna be easy...

Helix: yeah...LTE and DTE too! shucks...

Heledine: haha... well let's go!

Helix: loser pays for the sea-salt ice cream!

Heledine: hey! Dx oh fine...

disclaimer: just in case some people are wondering, some of this aren't true :] hohoho~ i have good imagination! ;D *shot*