This is a short post, a reflection i want to say. a statement i will make. a promise i won't break. a dream i want to make.

Firstly, i showed her my results. she said i wasn't trying. i said i did.
here my statement was wrong, it was a mistake. i should have kept quiet shut up until she asked a question.

i feel she doesn't understand me. so i talked, but was cut off.
i was wrong. i didn't understand them instead. they knew me, they know my flaws.

i made her cry. my greatest mistake for the night. i disappointed them, i made her sad.
i shouldn't have done that, i should have even said that. i shouldn't have made her cry.

I SHOULD HAVE WORKED MY LIFE OUT FOR THE BEST RESULTS I COULD GET, NOT SITTING ABOUT LAZING AROUND. EVEN IF IT ISN'T THE O LEVELS NOW, I STILL HAVE TO GET THE PROPER THEY WANT TO SEE. ALL THEY WANT IS TO SEE ME HAPPY, SEE ME SMILE.

but i didn't do that, i did the opposite. up till now. that night, was one of the worst nights. it's the first time i made both of them sad. BOTH. this sad. promises don't work, things don't come to you if you don't try.

i respect them, and i appreciate them. in the end, all i want to tell them is:

I love you, and i will try. i will make you smile. I will let everyone smile.

By the way, thank you angel and alvin xDD haha.

^___^

ego volo judico sicut durus sicut procul exsequor mei somnium, ego fides.
(i will try as hard as to fulfill my dreams, i promise)

~Elixian