seriously, i feel i'm really losing interest in whatever i do... i'm geting angry at the things around me... i want to stop, but it's imposible. it's not going to happen.

just look at my freakin actions in class. pfft. pathetic. Bloody moron like me can't do a thing.

exams are coming and i can't concentrate at all, can't do this can't do that.

i HATE this side of me.
i HATE this freakin bastard.
i LOAF this FREAKIN MORON STAND IN FRONT OF ME IN THE MIRROR.

pfft, i'm angry and that's it. and i'm losing all my interest. in art, in music, and gaming. EVERYTHING.

i HATE this WORLD of MINE.

oh how pathetic. i really hate myself now and i really don't know what to do. anyways, i doesn't even matter what i type here. NO ONE reads this bloody blog. it's DEAD.

.... somehow, i lost interest in this world and him...

no matter how much i don't want to. i am.

~Helix

randoms:
mood: totally horrible and somehow depressed.
music: i don't know any right now. i'm empty right now. FORGET you even heard a piece of music.

i can't stand myself anymore... i think i'm going to broke soon... wonder what will happen if i really broke... wonder...

(sorry for the post but i am really in no mood to type. i hate everything...loaf it... and i will make it bloody red if i could... i'm pathetic...)