I finally screwed up my life big time.

I finally broke down the day before exams.

I finally realised that if i don't do well, my smooth journey will come to an end.

I know i've cried many a times, i know i've made people confused, irritated, frustrated just trying to tell me "the hell is wrong with you?"

I know. But i can't do it.

Its not that i don't understand, i do.

but i just can't do it. .-. silly.

im' desperate. probably.

nvm, anything.

i think, i should change.

what reason? everything.

I never had a reason.

so perhaps, the reason i needed was failure could cause everything even though i'll still live to move on and get better.

so...

here starts my new journey.

~Elixian

we were falling from the sky,
fear i had,
tears fell together with my body towards the sea.
mid way i thought,
"how i wish i'd reach the end now,
so my tears would drown,
drown together with my body in the sea,
and never will it be found."
Never will there be a me.
But there'll always be a you.